i'm not me.
hello world
today school was so boring. lectures . omg. almost died. anyways . had an activity with the yr 1s in the afternoon. they were quite ok actually. at least better than the yr 2s last yr. lol . hmm anyways. i really feel damn stressed out lately. i don't feel like i'm me. i just don't feel right. i'm lack of ideas, lack of the energy, lack of determination, lack of confidence, lack of brain juice. will it all be back to me in no time? hmmm i don't think it will. it wld take a really long time i guess. its the second day and i'm feeling so tired. physically and mentally. i think i'll break down very soon if my mind keeps on thinking about so many stuff. but thats the fact i've got so much things to handle. badminton, projects, schedueles, planning. oh man . moreover the guy captain ain't back from his attachment yet!!! omg . can't cope seriously.
mum nags so much. dad's so eager to help. i don't wish to hurt their feelings but i think i just did. i feel that i'm so rude. i've changed. i dun wanna change. i wanna be me again. but i think it'll be so hard. i know i'm not a very happy girl. its because of friends thats why i've been quite cheerful lately. as i always say. plasticsmiles. just a short moment of laughter.i don't feel like smiling, i don't feel like expressing, i dun wanna break down cause i wanna be strong like i've always been.
i really don't know wadssup with me. even the way i speak may sometimes be too irrational and direct. i don't wanna be this way cause i know no one likes it.
i walked home in the rain just now. love walking in the rain. free bath? HAHA . nahh . its not. cause i like the feel of raindrops falling down on me. X)
chaos.
p.s. i'm so piled now.! 2 things at a time. omg!!! . ahhh. faints.
posted by shutupworld 8:26 PM
