what is with all these thoughts
hello world
i'm so mixed up in my brain. project? lack of sleep? stress?? yea prolly . so much things bothering me lately. i woke up late . woke up with shock this morning. mum came in so loud that i jerked. LOL!.
so my fyp doesn't even feel like fyp. seriously .. ask teacher so wad must we find for case study. i expected a o find campus like landscape or um eco friendly and rainwater collecting system stuff like tt but she replied... ' find anything that helps u in your project' . hmmm okayy ... great . later i find one tt doesn't comply to wad she expects. GG for me .. hur . i seriously broke out laughing. and controled. lol .
weekends were rushing times. i'm almost done with analysis. ALMOST done... yes ... case study found . to be confirmed by monday. so sections sketches concept elaboration ... yes ... gonna be done . BY TOMORROW. X). hehe ...
jy to all ... X)) ...
inspirations inspire me.
chaos
p.s. pigs can flyy .... ( in your dreams DUH! ). XD
posted by shutupworld 10:05 PM
i'm early!
hello world
i'm up early ! cause my mum budged in my room without being discreet.( can imagine me jumping out of bed man . XD) lol. project is damn behind time now. like not that i'm slow or anything but i've got badminton and my stupid hand. dang. yes . 1 week left. i must come out with an appropriate design. appropriate concept extention to tally with my design. case study not done yet. like fuggg.
so we got 4th overall for this competition. its ok people lets work hard for ivp and we'll bring them down ! . hohoho! X). all of u have done well! . X))... SPteam huat ar!! XDD.
i think i've become so vulgar.
chaos
p.s.1stupidtruthand1truthfullie.
posted by shutupworld 2:17 AM
DO WORK!!!! DOOOO WORKK!!!! FUG!!! CONCENTRATE!!!
hello world
i'm so friggin frustrated with myself. friggin stressed up cause i'm damn lagged behind. fug. dammit. i learnt something good today.. thanks nick again . XD. at least i learnt how to draw. X) .. which is a good thing. to apply it is another situation... i hope i'll be able to do it . XD... so i'm still doing section.. yep . site a analysis not done... yep . like fug . ya i know. i should be finishing with that and thats it ... but ya . i'm still stuck with section cause i assumed that the drain was the pathway how clever ... yes smart alicia. that site is so screwed. so much levels. fug . fug . fug. arghhh....
now u understand how frustrated and stressed up i am feeling...
last day of competition. hand still not fully recovered. ha. how nice/
yr 3 is a total screw up.
chaos.
p.s. sometimes when things are beyond control i'd hide my emotions with laughter. so plastic. yea get a mask then.
posted by shutupworld 10:54 PM
back to reality
hello world
it just seems that my hand isn't going to get any better. so i fugging spent my saturday and friday night doing 1 friggin analysis. yes. I'M THAT SLOW AND MY HAND IS THAT RETARDED TO FUNCTION NOW!. fugtard. sigh. i'm losing patience. i just hope my hand isn't infected.
went out with badminton mates in the evening yesterday. had dinner then proceeded to a sheesha shop at clarke quay. didn't drink or sheesha as i had to stay up late for the project and i dun ever wanna try sheesha ( no different from smoking actually). so reach home the same time as mum. XD . didn't get a scolding which was good. haha . well. stayed up till 3am to do work. yesterday felt funny thou. everybody please take extra care. really .
chaos
p.s. these funny feelings please go away.
posted by shutupworld 12:02 PM
concentration is the game
hello world
it was a turn of the table yesterday. i played doubles. it was a pretty long and awesome filled game. partner did well. X). overall everyone did really well.. could see the fighting spirit present focused faces. its ok that we have lost its enjoying the process while learning from it. X)..
so went back to school today and met kelly and a few others to help out doing the site analysis. X))... was a pretty fulfilling day after disappearing from class since tuesday. i have to start on my work and do it fast. ok so after this post gonna start work. i haven started a single shit. and teacher wants me to give to her by tuesday when i can hardly draw anything but write words now. X(.. what should ido? oh wells shall try my best.X(. hopefully i'll be able to recover soon. X((.
chaos!
p.s. i don't feel too good.X(.
posted by shutupworld 9:28 PM
need to get over it .... FAST!
hello world
first match against nyp. seriously i was honestly disappointed with myself. i was leading but lost in the end. wads up in my mind ! slap myself for that.
np tomorrow. removing stitches on thursday. project and lecturers alrdy haunting me. juggling would be my forte soon. i have to no matter what.
chaos.
p.s. immersing myself in books and plannings.
posted by shutupworld 12:04 AM
not long enough
hello world
if holidays were long enough.... i would
1) paint my mural and get my bean bag
2) amend my stuff
3) hang out with friends tt i didn't manage to hang out with
4) go back to my itp work place
5)train like no tomorrow HAHA!
6) have more time for myself
7) finish my book!!
okayy .. but seriously thats wad i feel like doing....
i dread school to reopen cause projects and lecturers are seemingly stressful to handle. i enjoy trainings and planning. but i've decided to just sign up for the scholarship. if i'm fated to be in this line i'll naturally be in . in fact or rather i believe so i guess.
holidays having learn ceramic art and bridal bouquet arrangement has been the best thing that has ever happened thou ... i enjoy both equally . X))...
chaos
p.s. another round of frantic another round of stress. yes think of it as fun . SINCE WHEN WAS IT SO EASY TOO THINK THAT WAY! fug. school.
posted by shutupworld 11:13 PM
mi mates meet up after 2 yrs !! X))
hello world
i'm suppose to be at batam now but..... THANKS TO MY DOG! i'm stuck in singapore. this boring island. T.T. i'm still wondering whats with the boomz. like seriously . she's really very pitiful. but i've got to agree tt her english isn't good.
ok so i went out with grace on tuesday and i felt damn bad making her wait for me for 1 hr!.. so sorry cousin. I OVERSLEPT! T.T . thanks to my dad who woke me up haha . X)))... its rare tt we cousins meet up just to shop so we took a few photos ! . X))..
Today, went out with MI clique! X). dawn, hui wen and yuyao. jing xuan had attachment so ooh wells she couldn't meet up. X(. so we spent 4 hrs havinglunch at NYNY. XDDD... had free cotton candy and had so much fun taking pictures and having videos taken. XD. wad pretty hilarious. X))... so hui wen left at about 5++ and we proceeded to esplanade library to chill out and just chat. X) . went home at about 7 ++. and yup.. X).. we'll meet up during the next holis!. X)).. hopefully? HAHA .. it has been 2 yrs since we last met up man.. ^^
pictures!!
cousin and me! X))
dawn,me,hui wen! X))
dawnme hui wen yu yao! X)))
chaos!
p.s.i'm gonna run tomorrow morning.
posted by shutupworld 11:50 PM
photo entry'
hello world
today i shall let the photos do the talking. things that had been going on since last thursday.X)
Thursday
was suppose to meet raba'a but thanks to my dog. i ended up in the hospital. with 7 fuggin stitches
in the hospital b4 having stitches.
the bigger wound.
ok de 2 smaller wounds i shall not post it up. X).
Friday
corsage
i love cream roses!! X)))
my bouquet!
teacher!!! X)))
Saturday
was on the way to send mum for her dinner function and yep the sky was beautiful
Sunday
MUMMY'S BIRTHDAY!!!! X))..
so we went to this brazillian restaurant at katong to eat. was pretty nice and the food was good too. bought mum a cake too.. X). i did a card for her despite my injury. so i had to go back yto basics no fanciful drawing. just a simple present .X)
present and card. X). (i did wrap the present but forgot to take a pic. haha).
cake! XDD
horrid handwriting. XD
comical. XD
my lil princy.love.X)
the sky was awesome in my backyard.
chaos!
p.s. the worlds best.... is?
posted by shutupworld 2:22 PM
utterly splendid
hello world
i'm typing with my left hand now. feels a lil retarded. thanks to my fuggin dog, my right hand is handicapped for 12 days with stitches . i can't write properly now neither can i train and play badminton. no sttrength at all. i can't grip for nuts. so my trusty left hand is doing the job of my right hand.
lucky for me the bite was superficial so it didn't hit any nerves. it missed my main vein by less than 1 cm. i am fortunate tt it didn't hurt alot yet i was fascinated by my tissues and stuff working in my hand haha. so i was pretty calm after my dog striked at me tt i actually took a picture of the wounds. shall upload it another day. X). So thanks to him i visited the hospital for the very first time. the doc was pretty dao so i decided to ask him about the instruments tt were present on the table which made him less dao. haha . the x ray room was scary. room was huge and cold and there was a bed centered in the room with a huge machine overhanging the bed. and beside the bed there was a chair. the nurses was nice and all and fortunately enough i was seated on the chair haha. so the entire visit to the hospital took about 2 hrs. the ot room was super cold tt i shivered even though i had a blanket on. the most gruesome part was when he jabbed the anesthetics around my wounds before he started cleaning and stitching. but the ultimate hate is EATING MEDICINE TT IS LARGER THAN PANADOLS!!!. yep i can't swallow pills for nuts!. damn it lol.
ok so despite all these i went to see them train and went for my last class for my bridal bouquet arrangement. bought mum's present too and some assesories . X)). thanks to my dog i can't go batam officially. sigh....
chaos.
p.s. i hope i can go lehhh.. X((
posted by shutupworld 1:40 PM
suspicious
hello world
so i woke up at 9am today. paint my walls till 2++ with dad. had a good talk to him about the batam trip and he reluctantly agrees to let me go. so anyhow.... i still have to ask him one last time. had duck rice with dad today. ooo i painted my room erm.... rose white? yup ! . X) . so its really white now. haha . and it has got a really pleasent smell to it too.... no stinky paint smell! . ( thank god!). X) . was 1 hr late for training due to the painting mission. training today was ok. only thing was my shoes was damn stiff and string damn tight. so didn't really play welll today.
went out to celebrate kelly lee lao lao's bd which is actually tmr . X) . haha .. we went manhatten fish market and i think we were the noisiest batch there. Xppp... HAHA . its ok . it was fun anyhows. X).. we forgot to take pictures ! . yes !. so yep no pictures. X( . i've got a really poor memory. X( ... i get distracted easily now... damn ... concentrate man concentrate! . XD
chaos.
p.s. my dad paints like a pro. X).
posted by shutupworld 11:36 PM
so its a random brick wall infront of me
hello world
my coach organised a batam trip next thurs and fri but my dad doesn't allow. fugggggg ... brick walls are a there for a reason; its a test of how badly you want something. i'm not particularly die die wanna go but its just that its my last yr in poly and i just want to spend more time with the team playing badminton and enjoy. cause probably after this yr i won't be in singapore for 3 yrs. probably.
sometimes when ou want something damn badly it just doesn't go to you . but when u dun want something so badly itjust goes naturally to you . WHAT IS THIS MAN! . i really want to do something fun like photography, wedding planner, preps for brides and customs understanding life basics but no. parents feels tt NO FUTURE for me. sometimes i wonder what is right for me then? isn't it for me to be happy? to be enjoying wad i like to do ? i will do whatever i take responsible with my best of efforts but if i'm not enjoying it, is that gonna make me happy? honestly.. i'm not very sure myself too.. life's too complicated.
chaos
p.s. fug assumptions.
posted by shutupworld 2:23 PM
never wanted to, never intended to.
hello world
so am i the eeyore or the tigger today? i think i am the tigger... X). haha . i got so high after having my lunch and rum and raisins ice cream today. ^^^ .. ultimate love ! . X)))))... the cone was awesome, the ice cream blew me away. X) ... 3 yrs ago was the last time i had the same flavour ice cream from the same shop and it tastes the same. ! . X). awesome!. X)))... haha . wingy got so freaked out by my highness tt he went offline . lol . XP.
went to get shoes today with my junior at queensway!. X) . we bought the same badminton shoes lol ! . and we got the same size too ! . HAHA! . and our racket strings broke today too... X(( .... sadded. its like becoming a frequent thing tt my string breaks every 1-2 mths. this sucks. burning a hole in my pocket. X( .
painting my room tmr. the base coat. then letting it dry.
and i'll figure out wad to do with it.
yep.
chaos
p.s. rum and raisin ice cream is still ultimate love ! . HAHA!!. XPpp.
posted by shutupworld 11:28 PM
sundays.
hello world
sometimes i wonder... why people get different treatment. life's unfair, its a biatch. haha . oh wells. i can't find someone to talk to comfortably now. sis's busy, wingy's o's are coming, mum's always busy, dad's just a smoke machine, bff is having attachment, so many others working and i'm only free on tuesdays and thursdays. X(. so far i only met up with auntie kelly. my 7 weeks of holis is 3/4 gone. i'm only left with 2 weeks. on the 2nd day when school reopens would be the competition. i think when school reopens i'll be like a mad person rushing here and there to get things done, having meetings, badminton stuff, projects, etc..... ANOTHER CRAZY SEM IS GONNA START!!!! .. i'm scared man .... i'm afraid i can't handle. but well . I HAVE TO NO MATTER WHAT! . my gems pulled my grades down by a lil. like crap. yes. i know!.
i'm getting more and more forgetful. X(. it just seems like eating alone is not scary anymore. instead its quite refreshing to have some quiet time alone eating a plate of pasta with soup and a drink with a nice ambience while reading a good book. i could still remember 3 yrs back when i was having my o's and there was once i was forced to have dinner alone at macs and how uncomfortable it felt. but now, it feels otherwise. maybe i'm used to it. i guess its not a very good thing neither its a bad thing thou . HAHA .. ( i'm contradicting myself. Xp)
i'm glad i took up courses during the holidays. X). at least i wasn't online or tv-ing 24/7. X). camp was good too! trainings made me slim down alot. but...... I BECAME ALOT FAIRER!!!!! X(((... i should go roller blading soon! .
chaos
p.s. TANN NEEDED! Xp.
posted by shutupworld 11:53 PM
last ceramic lesson. X((..
hello world
if i had the time and chance i would definitely continue my course for ceramics. X). its really fun cause i did not play plasticine when i was young cause i hated the smell. XD. at least with this clay, i can make something useful.X).. so today is mid autumn festival. teacher brought homemade mooncakes for us. X). her mum made it btw. XD. so yep. she helped me a whole lot today. haha ...
so after lesson i took a pic with her... she's really patient and nice . ^^.... i'll be seeing her another time to collect my products. XD. she'll be helping me to glaze!!! ^^ . YAY! . X)).
so yep. went to kamarul's hse with nasihah and met the rest there. was quite full eating and chit chatting was good. X).. having chocolate all over my face and hand was fun too. HAHA!. alrights. pics to be uploaded later ba. i'm too lazy now. Xp..
good nite world ! ^^
chaos!
p.s. money isn't the key to happiness. X)
pictures as promised! X))
what i did for my last lesson . X))
teacher!! X)). ( she's really nice X) )
cakes! ( colourful eh? X)) )
yup us. X)
posted by shutupworld 1:32 AM
rum and raisins.
hello world!
today puts an end to my cravings. i had pasta mania and rum and raisins ice cream for dinner. X)))... so met up with juniors to have thai food in fc4 then played guitar hero at moberly. went for trng thereafter till 4. today weather was killing man . bridal bouquet arrangement course in the night. carnations are really nice i'd just realised. XD.
picturess!!
veronica is its name. X).
chaos
p.s. rum and raisins is fa ice cream flavour of all time!> X))... ( i smelt like rum after tt ! XD)
posted by shutupworld 12:23 AM
self-consciousness.
hello world
woohoo finally today i woke up at 10.30am! X).. so woke up ate breakfast cleared partial of my room had a really crazy heavy lunch (and ended me without any rum and raisin ice cream. X( ) so yep. i cleared my table like finally . i took about 6 hours to clear my room. and its still not entirely done yet. i threw a big trash bag of worksheets away. superbly dusty man my room . haha . so my table is spic and span now. X).
mooncake frenzy. seriously . i only ate 1 wedge of mooncake and i got sick of it instantly. i wan my single yolk mooncake!. XDD.. lol ... need to pray first before can eat. so i'd just have to wait till saturday!.
chaos!
p.s. i need to get a life before school starts in 2 weeks time.
posted by shutupworld 11:28 PM
