HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!
hello world.
today was my dad and mum's wedding anniversary ! . XD . 27 years together sia . long eh? HAHA . oh well this morning i went to get my pdl and sign up for my final theory test. i've gotten my driving instructor alrdy so driving lessons would officially start nxt sunday.
Went to see euro trng today. he was really kinda out of control there thou. lol . hmmm . anyways.. had black pepper chicken chop for lunch.
Thereafter, we came back and started to do their anniversary card. loadsa photoshop and writing and pasting. damn last min . was practically rushing lol. so yupp . oh well. turned out quite nice actually. X)) . haha . We had dinner at ah yat restaurant as to commemorate their anniversary. However, i felt that sis and me were so extra la . HAHA . big big light bulbs man . Xpp . The most peculiar thing i found out about my parents and us is that my sis and mum hold the knife and folk the same way while me and dad hold it the same way. HAHA . That was one funny discovery. X) . Dinner was nice overall. VERY FILLING!!! . HAHA .
After dinner, we went to the singapore flyer to check it out. it was quite nice actually the place was built up quite nicely except the carpark. if i've gotten my license i wouldn't want to park at the car park. the turns are really crazy. ! .
oh well i'm really tired.. later ~! . X)
chaos.
p.s. thanksforyourconcern... bestie . X)) . take care all and enjoy your holidays! . loves.
posted by shutupworld 11:59 PM
YAY!!! HOLIDAYS!!!. X))
hello world.
today... spent the entire day in school listening to my classmates with their designs. actually i kinda dozed off cause i was seriously too tired le la . sigh . anyways ... today was quite alright. hmmm i was kinda quiet actually. i don't know why too actually. hmmm . probably cos i was talking to the wall most of the time? lol . oh well nevermind. my hobby is talking to the wall isn't that cool? lmao. holis are here like finally! . haha . time to chill out and have fun. X).
nth else to say le.
chaos.
p.s.blackhole.
posted by shutupworld 7:00 PM
thanks. :)
hello world .
today was my presentation and i think i didn't present very well partially cos i was having gastric and on the other hand i was nervous. lol . so yupp. hope i can get good grades? hmmm okayy. i'm scared. oh well. i hate this feeling. this feeling of lack of confidence. sometimes i really feel as if i'm being outcasted lol. well. i've no idea y i've got this feeling but somtimes the best solution for me to do is shut my fcktard gaps. lol. i've been really feeling very.. well i don't know how to describe but its just loadsa disappointment followed by unhappiness then isolation. i've not been myself ever since school reopened . is it because of the overwhelming things that is happening around me? or is it just my new set of thinking? well i'm not even sure myself. was chatting wid sister and wings for a while jus now. they sure brighten up my day. X) . thanks guys.
i've been repeating so many things happening around me lately? but now its like a whole load off. well i think i shld take things the heck care attitude. i'm too stressed up. i need a serious break away from the world. away from everybody. away from myself. away .... seriously i hardly know myself. that strong self i once was..isgone. i dun have the determination to play badminton now. passion lost. ( probably cos of my dad) . i sometimes don't even have the mood to do the project. honestly, i feel really disappointed with myself. i told myself before be strong and not get influenced but in the end i still got influenced . i dun like it . really . its totally not me. i hate it . i hate the life i'm living now. the problem lies with me. i really dunno wad to say. i'm not perfect and i very well know that. i vye for perfection however i know everything that i do there would definitely be a flaw regardless of what i do. i say te wrong things most of the time. and i know i should not. i've been really quiet since young . can't blame. i'm sry if i'm being too direct cos tv was my only tool. and it still is.
chaos.world
p.s.beingemoain'tascoolasyouthink.ineedoneslaponmyface
posted by shutupworld 11:16 PM
I NEED A BREAK!
hello world.
i'm really tired . i need a break. a break from all the crazy things that is happening and how i feel. projects and all seem like a daily thing . it has been a routine since the start of yr 2 . i don't seem to get used to all these stress. The worst is when ur mind is filled nothing but concept project and everything. Cecilia and i have been so into this till we even thought of what we are gonna do for our nxt project lol . i meant just the concept itself. lol . its really funny. XD .
had gems presentation today. went off well. cecilia tt grp too did well. X)) . asked some really stupid qns. ( girlnxt timejustsuturgapscan) grrrr. i'm kinda angry wid myself. embarass myself for nothing. ok is this part of growing up? hmm welll i guess so.
lifejustseemssounpredictable.itjustseemssohard.
chaos.
p.s. journeyofathousandmilesbeginswithasinglestep.
posted by shutupworld 10:02 PM
YAY!!!! oh wait we still have GEMS and PRIMER PRESENTATION!!!!!!
hello world ...
i only had 1 hr of sleep from the previous day. dead beat right now. fortunately sch starts at 1 tmr . oh man gems presentation. oh man . girl u're soo not gonna survive tomorrow i think loadsa ppl will start shooting u man , rawhh . lol . oh well. i deserve it. me and my big mouth . unliterally lol.
finally primer 2 FINISHED!!! . woohoo~!!! . today was like damn hectic. went to school chiong panel chiong chiong chiong until 4++ pm. then chiong to go driving basic theory test. ( I PASSED!!) . X)) . haha . oh yay!! . X)) . HEHE . the girl's licensed to drive NOT! still need to have lessons . oh well at least i still get to go behind the wheels woohoo~!!! mini cooper here i come . Xpp . AHHA. ok girl wake up luh. Xpp . i was so crazy when i saw that big big word PASSED on the screen when i finished the test lol . damn happy can . woohoo~!! . HAHA . XPp . yay!! . X)) .
chaos.. chionging gems..
got do la ! . Xp .
p.s. MINI COOPER HERE I COME!!! . hohoho . Xpp .
posted by shutupworld 9:32 PM
swings.
hello world
my week was G-R-E-A-T . as if.. had presentation on wed. went well actually except for the fact that something happened that made me feel quite shocked actually. during gems i've no idea why just sudden outburst of rage. probably its the cause of stress. sigh. during badminton well went well i guess. thurs rushing again. fri as well. i'm no diff from a zombie now. juz work work and nothing but work . this is really crazy. i can't control my temper. its getting bad. i'm sorry if i ever shout at you or show face or throw tendrums cause i think i'm going madness soon. like this morning i slammed the door at my dad cause he was smoking while i was friggin slogging again. i guess he wasn't very pleased neither was i. Gems not done yet, basic theory test on tues along with the submmision as well. i'm done with most of the things but most of it is like totally not finalised yet cause it is damn draft. honestly, i still think i'm not talented for this course for my future job cause i can tolerate the stress no more. mum told me schooling you'll learn everything but when you work its only application of certain things and not everything. but its still designing. my drawing kinda sucks i can't visualise exactly for perspectives. it always appears very wierdly.
ok i shall stop whining AND GET BACK TO WORK! . dang so behind time. jy ppl ! . X))
girl get a grip of yourself.nothing comes easy.
chaos
p.s. confidence is everything
posted by shutupworld 1:53 PM
headache!!!
hello world
its a tuesday! . go back to school day. dang. was late for school. couldn't wake up on time. i'm gonna be really early tomorrow. presentation tomorrow as well. dang dang dang . fortunately we've finished the slides and hopefully that bastardy biatch no. 74 does not suan us tomorrow. HA HA . anyways . she has to prepare for our rebuttles. we won't let her down. TRUST ME! . X) .
today... started off quite ok with the pace finishing up my roof plan and finalising my main plan. level and drainage plan i'm quite scared to finish it up cos i'm not very sure so yupp i shall do my section or perspectives or both today lol . tomorrow there's training. i wonder how am i gonna survive tomorrow lol . so dead man . i didn't have enough sleep for 8 days already . okay. so crap. headache for the last half of the day. eyes went blur all of a sudden a while ago in class. i'm so tired !!!! . ARGH!!! .
dang . ALICIA GO EAT DINNER U'LL STILL HAVE TO SURVIVE FOR ANOTHER WEEK!!! .
ok chaos.
p.s. save your comments for yourself. zip it! . HA!
posted by shutupworld 7:22 PM
BLOODY HOT!!!
hello world
happy vesak day everyone. haha. was suppose to go to the temple today but was so busy lol . seriously i think i'm gonna have endless sleepless nights soon. sigh . damn it man . hope i can finish the entire project on time cos seriously i've got officially 6 days . !! . in my time table i only have got 3 days to complete all the paper work with 2 days for me to complete with the panels. lol . damn . sat gonna print . okay this sounds insane but its the FACT! . argh . damn damn damn . this is madness!!! .
i finished all the plans already . tomorrow gonna finalise it and start with pavilion and sketches and section . okay . this is worst seriously . i haven settle with the friggin planting thing and the material as well . lightings also . drainage settled . but i need to include like loadsa pics later on. i'm gonna mass camwhore the stupid site tmr at the same time get the stupid perspectives over and done with. Sections well, 2 sections erm half a day will do ba . tomorrow have to start with pavilion stuff as well. okay this is really MADNESS!!!!! . ahhhh!! . damn . this sucks .
i haven't been blogging regularly cos i've been really damn busy. new nickname project girl. thanks ar yujun. lol. i've been trying to be consistent but seems like i have not been doing my task on time. i mean completeing it on time lol . oh well . shall stop here. i really ate alot the past 3 days cause have been using up loadsa energy lol . i think i've put on weight la . oh wel . XD . had bubble tea with sis today cause she wanted to prove to herself that she could get a decently delicious oreo ice blend so yupp she was happy that it finally tasted nice after 5 times of unhappiness. XD. On sat, went out with sis as well . i think i've been catching up alot with her lately after the mother's day plans. lol . its quite a good thing isn't it? XD . realised that she's more sensible now. literally. XD .
ALICIA CONTINUE WITH YOUR WORK AND QUIT BLOGGING!
ok chaos. XD
p.s. ah bi rocks! . HAHA . ok a rock for u . X) .
posted by shutupworld 7:59 PM
omg!!!! work work workworkworkwork!!! T.T
hello world
omg.. i've not updated for 3 days? haha . Xpp . lol . have been really busy for my project lol. i'm not even half done. no sketches no finalised work no nothing! . omgosh. so dead. lol . sigh ... dang. only 1 week left! . its actually 6 days only . lol . with wed gone i think i'm really dead. i must finish it by wed latest! . no choice. rwp shall do it later. no time already. i think i'm gonna come out with a schduele before i ever start on anything. i must be decisive already or else my things would look nothing but just crap and more crap. lol .
anyway backtrack..
thurs ... was super busy. tension was really high. everybody was so super stressed out. went home and started to start on the 1:200 scale plan. was informed that the hall couldn't be used for sat. so... informed everyone. after informing i was continuing on my plan . my phone just couldn't stop ringing. lol . oh well. i replied every message without looking at the sender until in the night i found out that someone unknown messaged me lol . okok this sounds damn dumb but i guess i'm still as blurr as ever. stupid primer 2 . i've got no life for now! . sigh...
fri... went to guys second trials after school lol. found out who was the one who messaged me the night before lol. okok i'm 1 day lagging. lol . oh well. anyways.. played barefooted with lisa against 2 other guys and miraculously we won! . lol . but i felt so sweaty all over after playing haha . XPp . anyways ... congrats to those who got into the team . X) . haha .
sat went to esplanade to do project with ceci. i was 1 hr late cause i woke up at 10am when i was suppose to meet her at 10 lol . i'm really sry! . XD . had pepper lunch then proceeded to do project . thereafter, i met sis at tm to buy her friend's bd present lol. so yupp . tts abt it. i finished level and drainage and left a bit of roof plan to complete! . XD . jia you everyone !! . X))
chaos
p.s. choices.
posted by shutupworld 1:12 AM
omgosh my leg is a liability!
hello world
woke up super super late today. cause i set to silent mode de night before thinking that it was on loud mode. lol . stupid!! . grr. okok . i made shi be late for sch as well . i really feel bad . SORRY!!! . anyways ... we came up wid a valid reason... ( we juz finish the powerpoint so we were late) . teacher bought it ! . HEHE . Xpp . smart shi . LOL! . haha . i had chicken rice for lunch... went for gems those 2 irresponsible people didn't turn up.. so ended up doing my plan.
went for meeting thereafter, then went for training. During training, i strained my leg muscle causing me to not do the footwork and all well especially at the front lol. damn. i think i'm too heavy. SHED FATS! . lol . my face is usually red luh . so one of the guys asked me is my face so red. shy ar? lol . i'm skin colour is red lol . natural cause my healthy! haha . Xpp . joking . Xp . i really feel like a friggin bimbo during training. i don't seem to be serious. i don't sense it. probably i've got high expectations for myself but seriously... if i do not aim high probably u wouldn't be seeing me in poly lol. alicia. please be serious. omgosh!!! . i'm so crazy.
practically limped home. ( slightly) . lol . oh well. i'm done with the plan. FINALLY! .lol . letting teacher inspect then go print alrdy . X)) . hohoho. lol .
going to see the guys trials with 2 yr 1s on fri. XD . okay . they wanna see their friend ar so yupp i accompany them. X)) .
chaos. haha
p.s. probablyitsjustmeandmyfrigginmind.
posted by shutupworld 11:23 PM
monday blues...
hello world
i feel that i must blog today although its kinda late now. lol . hmm well. i was kinda quiet for the entire day. just didn't feel like talking. probably cause of the muscle ache effect? maybe? haha . lol . oh well . i just feel so inferior to others. confidence issue. i dun think i am like well being myself for the past few months and i tot it was cause of ....... ( sensitive issue).. lol . i don't think it is now. so tired of being and feeling so lousy all over. my physical self isn't healthy. i dun feel as strong as before. i think if those who have not seen me for a long time can definitely feel the difference. i've become so fragile u'll never believe. i'm like an uno stacko trying to climb up again. years of striving to get into nationals will never come true.
chaos.
p.s. stupid project killed my tiny eyes.
posted by shutupworld 11:56 PM
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!
hello world
omg!!! so last min seh . this time's mother's day was damn hectic cos i got everything yest!!!! . and finished everything yest!!! . slept at like 4am cos of the card and the apple crumble thing. lol . got her necklace and a floral cushion. we also got the ingredients by ourselves yest. the apple was the ultimate killer . so heavy plus we dunno how to choose. HAHA . we spent quite long choosing. XPp . HAHA . so... me and my sis got home and guess wad my parents were at the front. so i was like trying to hide everything hoping that she didn't see anything but i think she did la. XD. immediately, i checked the recipe and realised that we forgot to buy brown sugar so... after they went out, sis prepared the ingredients and i got the brown sugar after running out to get. XD . saw aldrich on my way home haha. anyways... by te time we started it was alrdy 10.30pm. lol . so yupp . started to de-skin the stupid green apples. and weigh the amt of flour we needed. thereafter, we decided that i do the sauce and my sis do the crumble. i failed twice thanks to my sis. cause she didn't tell me to put small fire and the moment i put in the butter it chao ta'ed on me. X((( . HAHA . 2nd time... she told me put in butter then put corn flour . but shld be butter, sugar, apples , cinnamon then CORN FLOUR! . omg... disaster. so oh well in the end we still succeeded cause i read the friggin recipe myself. X)) . haha . so nxt after filling all the alluminium cups, we put it into the oven to bake. while waiting we cleared up the entire place . XD . i scrubbed the sink damn clean lo . HAHA . so yupp . when the crumbles were done, we tried one of them. haha . it turned out not bad . X)) . haha . only a lil too sour . XPp .
mum was happy with the presents and all. haha . so yup. continue wid projects once again. T.T . sigh ...
chaos.
p.s. plan wisely .
posted by shutupworld 1:42 PM
i'm really exhausted!
hello world.
i'm really tired. just had dinner 30 mins ago . lol . i'm too lazy to blog alot today. had submission in the morning then had cake for the birthday ppl today. X) . then we surprised shi with the actual presents which was really super funny . her expression was like .. O.O haha . u know wad i mean . XD . lol .
had done some stuff for rwp . finishing soon . only left recommendations. continued with primer 2 . lol . its really worrying . T.T . its not going anywhere! . not at all lol . and its like super super worrying. plan and all. sigh... jia you everyone! . i have to jia you myself too! . haha . lol . X))
badminton today was fine. just that alot of physical lol. my stomach couldn't take it moreover i was having flu. so yupp . kinda hard for me to hu xi . HAHA LMAO! . lol . Xpp. some guys turned up but in the end they became our sparing partners. lol . almost died seriously . i must really train up myself alrdy lol. i'm not moving!!. lol . anyways after training me and jess went to play soccer . felt so stupid lol . couldn't kick it properly . HAHA . okok tts so lame. anyways had muscle cramps super alot of times today. i guess i'm gonna have aches too? haha .
thats all for today. oh ya we camwhored in class. loadsa pics. uplload it another time !. XP . i'm too lazy now.
take care all.
chaos.
p.s. sometimes things won't turn out perfect. just like the imperfect me.
posted by shutupworld 10:38 PM
LOL! . i'm in class!!!
hello world
guess what! i'm in class! having lecture and i'm using the desktop to blog. XD . lol . its 8.30am now. but the friggin lecture is making me sleep . Xp . ok i shall start with yesterday...
7th may '08
yesterday was quite ok . on the way to gems was really funny . the 'ai seh' slang. haha . cause emi saw a year one who bought acer computer so she said hi and cecilia said ai seh still remember. so... the yr 1's frens said ai seh ai seh. then all at the same time say ai seh to the boy loL! . haha . damn funny . when we went into the class, all of them looked kinda lost cause i think they heard all the commotion that was happening outside. XD . After gem's class, i went back to the MM lab for a while with ceci and thereafter, went to meet kelly and proceeded to the hall for the guy's trials lol . ( cause they ask me to help) =.=. lol . i saw ron. lol . kinda funny cause like suddenly nothing much to talk about thou. haha . anyways had a fun time . X) .
8th may'08 ( today)
ok. first starts with the stupid friggin uncle in the train. SERIOUSLY! wadssup with him man! argh . bloody eff shit. we didn't do anything to him he juz frown and stared at me seriously and pointed his 2nd finger and made the action like orh hor me like that . WTF! argh .. crazy shit. when we were around commonwealth he switched direction and stare at both me and shi and do the same action again . if u had seen my face at that time.. you could see all the question mark on my face literally. wth is wrong with him la ! . erm psycho? hmmm maybe. Xp . oh well. didn't bother about him cause it was not long before we reached dover. lol . so yupp .
shall update later if i've got the time. X)
chaos.
omg!!! lecture is damn bored!!
p.s. a journey begins with a single step.
posted by shutupworld 8:30 AM
omgomgomgomgomg..!!!
hello world.
firstly i have no time for posting up yesterday. secondly. i really have no time. thirdly . I SERIOUSLY HAVE NO TIME!! . racing against time is just my game. lol .
today... we were told to think about our concept. i thought of old school to memories to journey. lol . i'm now trying to string it all up together. something's definitely missing. but i'm still figuring it out. lol . mr idris say you very well know that there's something missing in my concept and he said that don't worry take it slowly it'll hit u naturally. likeokayy . ITS STILL BUGGING ME!!! . lol . everything i think now is just concept concept an concept. nothing else. ! . damn . my mind is so tired la . at this very moment i'm still thinking about my concept . and not only that ... i oso have stupid rwp and gems and htld to worry too. lol . stupid sia . omgosh . i must no mater wad manage my time really well . if i don't i think i'll fall quite badly behind. badminton is already taking up 1/3 of the nights for my entire week. lol . this may sound stupid but i'm gonna set a timetable. seriously is quite productive for me. X) .
kkz shall stop here for today. continue when i'm free again. blogging would be lesser . XD .
take care world.
loves
chaos.
p.s.things seems so vague. thinking seems so simple. creating seems so mysterious.
posted by shutupworld 6:45 PM
ifeellikeaftard
i shan't start with wad i always start with. cos i feel like a friggin f tard now. i shld have been graceful and step back. thinking that i could change him was juz absurd. i guess i'm just one big lauging stock man. seriously. feels so stupid. HA!. i guess i shld seriously wake up and friggin STOP THINKING! oh man. this feels like crap.
update more later.
11.31am
chiaos.
effedup.
p.s.thinkaboutwadyoudidbeforecommentingonothers.weweremoredisappointed.
back.
lol.
my second time typing this post cos i kinda made a mistake lol.
i was bored the entire day. i just found out that i've got hw to do lol. probably i wasn't listening as i was half dead on friday. lol . oh well. i shall do it later . was randomly seeing other people's blogs today. its amazing how people can change so fast man. some just appear to be so full of themselves like making themselves look like a celebrity or something? well 2 words.! try harder. seriously.. thinking that they are so friggin pretty acting like a goddamn princesses that all the guys would just swarm to them cause of their looks? hmm well think again. you've alrdy lost your pride and it also shows where your moral standard lies. its ocean deep man. i'm sorry but its the fact. sometimes i really wish to just go back to the days when we were younger and everybody seem so innocent like purely 'don't friend you' than now backstabbing . ok . no weapons here! lol . i'm joking.
i've go no mood no motivation no inspiration no creativity. where's all my creative cells!! ( oh wait do i even have one?) hmmm . lol . last night dad randomly asked me how was bdm on fri? before i could even ans him he continued. 'lousy right?' seriously . how would you feel? actually i wanted to reply 'not bad' ( which i think i really faired not bad tt day lol) . i just walked away. i should be quite used to it by now? as what i had said last year ' keep the good and throw away the bad' lol . now i understand . its easier said than done once again. sigh.
iwannabeconfident. iwannabestrong. iwannaknowmyself. iwannabesuccessful. iwannagetgoodgrades. iwannalivealifewithoutregrets. iwannabeperfect. iwannabeme.
chaos.
p.s.thinkthatlookscangetyousomewhere?wellthinkagain.
posted by shutupworld 6:00 PM
OMGOSH!!!SALTED SALMON!!
hello world
today was out with cecilia to get to measurements. had pepper lunch for lunch . had salmon rice as usual.. the salmon was like no diff from eating salted salmon. super salty . omgosh ... ewww. lol . anyways I GOT A NEW BAG!!! . hohoho . super happy . lol . actually it was meant for mother's day but second thought doesn't suit her la . haha . lol . so yupp . its mine all mine . hohohohohoho . X)) . hehe . its a stussy bag . like rope sling and black with a small golden crown. X) .
just had dinner not long ago. sis has got a new tuition teacher . she's 29 but she looks more like 30 going on 40 tt kinda person thou .Xp . HAHA . oh welli shan't be so ba luh . but seriously her dressing is omg! . so auntie! . those black laced cardigan inside a baby pink spaghetti with a flowery balinese patterned flared skirt. her hair is so messy . she tied it up but its so messy until i tot she was actually bald. Xp okok i shall try to take a pic of her . no guarentees. Xpp . HAHA . okok this is getting badder. Xp . oops ? my bad . hohoho.
my new bag!! . X))
okok this is really bad. :X
the worst thing she did was she left her frigging germy tissue atmy dining table!! . omgomgomgomg!! . imagine the fact that she was sniffing and coughing like non stop . omgosh . super disgusting . i'm glad i wont be seeing her again . HAHA . XPp . blehh . she teach nuts man . lol .
chaos
p.s.allthebadthings.comesandgoes.
posted by shutupworld 8:24 PM
hey girl your eyes are getting puffier!
hello world
guess wad. i spent the entire morning doing htld and i slept at 5.30am this morning can u believe it?! omgosh . i slept for only an hour and i can tahan until now. moreover played a lil badminton with the guys a while ago. lol.playednot too bad i guess. i'm gonna k.o soon but my hair's still wet lol . really super tired . dozed off half an hr when ceci was doing the tasks thingy. my eyes are closing pretty soon. oh ya zq owes me a treat hohoho . Xpp . blehh . anyways . takecare all . i shall spend my weekends fruitfully by catching up more sleep. haha .
chaos
p.s. aleopardneverchangesitsspots.
posted by shutupworld 10:31 PM
MAY DAY!!!
hello world
happy labour day to all . hohoho . finally a holiday man . dying .! . HAHA . but i'm damn bored at home stuck wid stupid project with dateline tmr. omg . seriously i dunno how to do luh . so ... i'm watching tv now which i'm not suppose to actually . haha . i've not been writing in my personal diary for at least 3 weeks already. omg!!! . tts bad . so dead. lol . haha . oh well . i'm damn lazy to continue wid my work le la . i think i shall continue it later? XD . tmr shall start wid primer 2 . i don't wanna wait till last min and everything cramps up again cos i've got like bsic theory on that very day of submission lol . shall stop here for now . take care everyone.! . X) .
EVERYDAY'S A MAY DAY! . XD
chaos. X)
p.s. my old chang kee is waiting for me !! . XD
what a girl wants.. do u know? hmmm
posted by shutupworld 6:09 PM
