judgements.
make me smile would u?
hello world
today had trng in de morning. met lisa, rach and may siew for mac breafast at pasir ris. XD . oh man i've gotta kick my bad habit of always being late !!! . T.T . okayy anyways... trng today was hard core !. luckily had a really proper breakfast or else i would have already died. XD. after training bathed, then went for lunch. then headed home . as usual the journey back and de lunching is really fun. haha . with non-stop laughing lol ! . X). just finished my dinner. gonna cong liang again . HAHA . tmr i shall slp like a pig !. X)) .
there's another issue in my mind actually. i was reflecting on myself for de past 2 days and i realised wow. i make such quick judgements on other ppl so much so that it aroused so much misunderstandings. i still see hate in my eyes. sigh .
chaos!
p.s. cananyoneunderstandmeevenwhenidon'tsayanything? hmmm. absurd.
posted by shutupworld 8:58 PM
hold me back!. i'mfallingtoodeep
hello world
woke up like super early this morning for trng. trng was fine but like super tiring. my fitness level gone down again. thanks to lack of determination. lol . i think i put on weight again . HAHA . i guess today was fine except for the fact tt i kinda attituded de guys coach today. oh man. i felt bad. sometimes i think i'm such a bad capt can . oh wells. dang dang . hur hur hur. okayy . went for lunch wid all. then headed to simei for my bubble tea as it was raining quite heavily. so yupps. X)) .
chaos
p.s.complicationsinlifeisinevitable.screwudang.!
posted by shutupworld 9:39 PM
F1 race was oh so cool! .
blankstares.
hello world
omgosh .. de f1 race was damn cool la ! . so many unexpected twists during the race. super uper cool ! . XD .
anyways went to j8 today wid parents then went to cuz hse and back home. now i'm still waiting for that stupid page to pop up and hopefully i can get de friggin booking soon ! . dang.
chaos.
p.s. somepeoplejustgetonmynervesohsobadly.
posted by shutupworld 11:44 PM
hellyea.! dang it.
collage
doodles in my notebook !. X))
hello world
saturday has never been this boring . i doodled my entire afternoon away accompanied with my TEEVVEWWEE!!! . XD . i'm gonna update my diary . haha .
imagine of all people ur parents don't trust you. wad would u feel?
chaos!
p.s. f1 cars are oh so cool and loud ! . XD . i'mstillconfused.
posted by shutupworld 9:05 PM
the unspoken
alone
hello world.
my driving lesson was better than good. at least my parking is now alot better. trng was good too. had energy and de rage to play. lunch was ok. loadsa laughing. sorry that i didn't go movie wid u ppl . Xp. i'm too lazy to blog today. heartaches.
chaos!
p.s.mydaywasfineuntilsomeonespoiltitawhileago.
yesitsmyfaultitsalwaysme..sometimesbreakingdownseemssoeasy.
posted by shutupworld 9:12 PM
zip it !
hello world
went to ecp wid dla clique. well didn't get so red today . XD . had a lift from mum home. and yupps kinda got chased up by my dad cos he wanted to watch tv downstairs and he just said somth which really pissed me off. i shan't say it here. anyways wad so nice about smoking seriously... dang i hate it when he smokes . just triggers my temper. argh .
chaos
p.s. take me on a ferris wheel would you?.
posted by shutupworld 11:38 PM
knowme.knowmenot.
hello world
today went for training in the morning . got to know some stuff lol . training was fine. loved the smashes. hohoho . Xp .
mum was nagging again. how i wish she could just give me some peace for some moments. lol . my poor ears.
chaos.
p.s. i'mquitehardtounderstandain'ti? Xd.
posted by shutupworld 12:05 AM
ikindahatemylife.
random doodle.X))
hello world
how i wished the world could just shut up for a moment . issues on temper mangement anybody can help me? lol . dang . i'm like really short tempered these days sigh ..
my mum nags like there's no tomorrow can . sigh . yest got woken up twice. sigh ... i think my eye bags are really bad lol . sigh . one gd thing was tt my dad actually helped me wash and change my bedsheet!! X)) . thanks loads dad . ^^ .
chaos!
p.s. thisgirliscrazyasshealreadyis.XD. i'mstillhiding.
posted by shutupworld 8:38 PM
carousel dream.
carousel.
hello world !
hohoho i stayed home and rot de entire day i slept till 1 pm !! . XD . got back my results alrdy !! . hohoho. well grp was quite expected but nvm at least still maintained. for individual i got grades that i didn't expect to get man ! . hohoho . Xpp . super happy . XD. lol . shall continue to work harder. ^^. meanwhile just slack train and eat! . hehe . i lost 1.5 kg ! . woohoo~~~! . HAHA .
chaos!
p.s. i'monthecarouselgoingroundseeingitdisappearingandappearingoverandoveragain.
foolishthoughts.naivefoleys.snap out of it!.
posted by shutupworld 9:21 PM
hot like HOTCAKES!!!
hello world!
today was another food craze day lol. anyways... went to cousin's hse to chill out for a while and went home. watched 2 fast 2 furious too. nice show with all the sweet and rawking sports car . XD .
lazy to blog further... Xp. the weather is KILLING me !!!! T.T
chaos!
p.s. self control. emotional break downs. crap i'm still surpressing when i know how i feel.
but i must....
posted by shutupworld 11:27 PM
SATURDAYY!!! bahahhaahhahhaaaa... LOL!
hello world !
today i woke up at 12pm! . lol blurrly saw shi's msg saying to meet at 1 at sp to play badminton. omgosh . lol . so i quickly msged her guess wad i just woke up lol !! . so anyways sherman came to pick me up at 2 plus and headed to fetch darren . met up with ray and the rest at the carpark then headed off to SP lol . so yupps reached tre and saw dennis and ex sp badminton player ( i can't remember his name ) :X. didn't play much cos i saw this nanyang poly girl playing . so yupps . lol . i'm daoster lol . Xpp .
thereafter took a bath then headed to old airport road to have dinner. omgosh i think i ate alot lol. Xpp . HAHA . i think food makes me happy!! . bleh ! . ray gave me a lift home and tada i'm at home now ! . XD .
as promised.... my picture ! when i was 5 yrs old ? XD
chaos!!
p.s. ican'tshakeitoff!.T.T
posted by shutupworld 10:15 PM
okayy another day of craziness.
hello world !
today got up late but was on time for driving lesson. parallel parking can just jolly well die la. dammit sickening . oh wells. was late for trng. only had 1 hr or less than tt of trng and i was really worned out. probably cos i didn't have breakfast. panting like a dawg. lol . went lunching with juniors. didn't have de appetite lol . so i had chng tng. so yupps. crapped alot and went to bugis.
got home thereafter was so tired and just fell asleep. watch teevee until now lol . randomly thought of pics when i was young . XD . oh wells i guess i was pretty cute last time. hohoho . Xp . lol . shall upload it another day . bleh ! . HAHA
chaos!!
p.s. somanythings.solittletime.somuchthoughts.andnothingcanbedone
posted by shutupworld 12:45 AM
red face!!
hello world ! .
i'm so lazy to blog lol . too lazy. Xp. just thought of some random stuff like just being my crazy self ignoring wad others think and not think too much abt things. hmmm shall update it tmr !
chaos~!
p.s. justletgo.i'dratherbeemothantomakeafoolofmyself.
posted by shutupworld 11:45 PM
dignity.
hello world!!!
great woke up super late today and made lisa wait for me . felt damn bad lol . anyways... training was kinda sucky lol. didn't have the mood again. !!!! rawh . lol . had lunch then went to meet shi and chevy at simei. went to chevy's hse to see his dog as well as chill out. omgosh his dog is damn cute can. pee-ed on his laptop bag and pillow wahahahaha. Xpp . LOL!!!! . then we played some stupid worm game which really got us all crazy haha . and counter strike lol . which made me and shi squeal and scream lol ! . XD . i think i was like de one screaming ba . :X . HAHA . oops . Xpp. anyways thanks sister !! . XD LOL! . XD
Ruffers! XD. he licked my face!!!!! XD
chaos!
p.s. crazily tired!
omgoshbragsandarroganceisreallykillinme.!
I WOULDN'T WANNA BE A FASHION DISASTER!
posted by shutupworld 12:10 AM
emokiddo?
i think i look as crazy as this. agree?? LOL!! . XD .
hello world
had trng this morning then thanks to sis had to rush home lol . oh wells. didn't really have the mood to play today lol . in de train i almost fell thanks to my left leg ! . lol . i was dozing off and yupp kinda nodded and almost fell. XD . lol .
hmmm one random qn ...
am i really emo?? lol . HAHA .
i have issues luh but really that emo meh? lol! . XD .
that was random . X))
chaos!
p.s. hey girl get real. wake up.!
posted by shutupworld 9:04 PM
SUNDAY!!! omgosh time passes so quickly.
hello world
ok today woke up at 10am watched my fav cartoon . HAHA . ( i know i know .. i'm still young at heart okayy!! ) XD . bathed and dressed up to go to my uncle's hse warming. lol . apart from the space overall it was okay. the place was really well ventilated. damn cooling. XD . Today's lunch was kind of a pot-luck thing. so the spread was huge. each family brought 2 dishes so it accumulated to about 6 dishes and more? we had otah, 'red wine' chicken, cheesy meaty potato pie, pig trotters with vinegar, fish head assam, bak kut teh, char siew ( home made) and some vegetarian food plus bee hoon and rice. omgosh . WHAT A SPREAD!!! not only these there was deserts as well. omgosh . i ate 2 bowls of deserts and god knows how much i ate on the main course ! . i think i ate alot !!! . gosh . my stomach was so bloated ! . lol.
thereafter, brought my sis for tuition and proceeded to j8 for some grocery shopping lol . i bought some snacks and mum couldn't stop yanking at me. how nice. she's becoming too naggy for her age man . tts y i'm always on mp3. Xp . oh well. Xpp .
went home couldn't eat rice or felt like eating anything so we decided to just eat salad so i prepared fruit salad and it tasted nice with all the fruits ! . hohoho , X)) .
my dinner... Xp
chaos !
p.s. alicia . STOP DREAMING!
posted by shutupworld 10:42 PM
life is so unpredictable...unexpected...
a random picture of the sky at dusk.
hello world
lets start with yesterday.. well had driving lesson in de morning ... i knocked down the pole like a zillion times ! . dang ... my reverse parking still sucks big time !!! . rawhh. stupid dang pig shit. thereafter played badminton wid the girls and the guys team. well i think i wasn't on form today. my smash was floating !!! . oh well. nvm . didn't have a proper breakfast nor lunch. i had proper dinner and supper lol . ( how ironic) . oh well. gained weight like duh ! . suppose to stop eating by 10pm lol. oh welll. i found out that one of my fren of the same age is pregnant! . omgosh . super shocked like seriously. she stopped school due to her condition. well i believe if i were in her shoes( which i would never be) i'd do the same too. but honestly, why the shit did she get herself into this kinda situation !! omgosh . i just can wish her all the best in the future ba. i really hope she can bring up her child well. X) .
woke up this morning ( or shall i say afternoon ) by my mum. ate my brunch and watched tv . and here i am now updating my blog. shall update my diary man . its still stuck at 26th august! . XD . lol . nxt thurs will be outing with badminton peeps. ^^ .
chaos !
p.s. anybody have got a solution for muscle aches ? lol !
posted by shutupworld 1:37 PM
LOL!!! I SLEPT FOR 12 HRS!!!! XD
hello world
i woke up at 12.30pm today!! . XD . cool rite? haha . lol . anyways.. went to town a while accompany my parents to some insurance company as they got their stuff done. was damn bored i even fell asleep on their couch . ( can u imagine!?!) lol . XD .
i've been thinking man . i feel like an idiot kicked around and swirling in my own world of emotions and i feel really stupid recalling some of the stuff that i had done lol. some bloody idiot i am lol . ! . sometimes i just feel that its not my mind that is controlling me its like my emotions that is controlling and overpowering my body. and dang i hate this feeling of regret. how i wish i could be numbed and not do some stupid stuff and make myself look so horrible. sigh . i guess people do misunderstand me most of the time. crap i feel like shit.
chaos.
p.s. stop thinking so much for a moment girl. ( i feel so crazy rite now.)
i feel really bad neglecting my princy( rabbit ) lol. it looks so jealous.
posted by shutupworld 11:14 PM
home sweet home. i'm damn tired can ! XD
before i went for camp... ( euro is pai kia lol ! ) XD
old car no more !
random doodle when i came home . XD
hello world! XD
i'm back from the 3 days camp!! . XD . omgosh it was a rawking cool one. i guess everyone had fun training and playing and bonding at the same time . X)) HAHA . got to know the team better and yupps. had training like crazy ppl. XD . although it was quite tough enduring all the tiredness and all but it was well worth it. i enjoyed every moment . X) . i finally found my passion again. ! . Xp . haha . the feeling i had b4 is now back !!hohoho . X)) .
Day 1:
met capt and vice capt to take de key then proceeded to t2261/2. met the rest there. settled down. went for lunch. then had training thereafter. we had the ice breaker game 'wacko' was really funny lol . i, as usual. BLURR!!! . haha . oh well. targetted so many times. T.T . then we proceeded to karaoke at moberly. only kelly, rachel, may siew, kamarul and me were there. the guys went dinner with their coach. So... we girls went to eat at staff centre foodcourt .X) . After dinner, we played captain's ball and volley ball at the tennis court as the courts were used up. We were separated in groups namely, 'apple' and 'orange'. well it was fun! . X) . de volley ball went out twice at the road side ( thank god it was at the side of the road ) . bathed thereafter then played tai di and surfed the net for a while before turning in at 2.30am.
(photos to be uploaded)
Day 2:
woke up at 6.30am. i'm so sorry that my alarm woke u all up . i really couldn't hear! . :X haha . anyways went for pt in the morning. omgosh my running really sucks now. i can't even make it for 2 rounds! arghh. dang... went for training after a quick breakfast. Training was quite tiring loadsa multiples. coach was like go smash! go! smash!. wth before i could even take the smash shot he gave an effing net ! . was so friggin pissed . nvm . forget it. urged me to exert more energy and just take every shot that was flying to me. lol . went for lunch with the guys. then slacked the entire afternoon. ad afternoon nap as we didn't have enuf sleep the previous night due to de aircon temperature being too low. it was 16 degrees Celsius!!! went for dinner at clementi. then came back to school wanted to start the friendlies however the courts were used up so oh well had no choice but to push back the time to 10pm-12am. XD . inbetween while waiting... i found out wad activity they were planning lol. just that they didn't know .bahahahaha .Xpp X)) . anyways went to play at 10pm i played 2 sets of doubles and 3 sets of singles. omgosh almost died after that. my entire shirt was WET!!!! . almost had muscle cramps. almost!! . XD . went back to T22 carpark and guess wad the guys were preparing water bombs. and u know wad !!! 9 guys against 5 girls and 1 guy! . wtshit! . so unfair la ! . T.T . yupp prime targeted again . nvm . its a game smiles ! . haha . well enjoyed it man . X)) .
i fell on my knees while 'drifting' as i was rushing lol . i fell on both knees but only one side is this bad. lol.
Day 3 (today!)
woke up at like 9 ? i think . cleared our stuff and put it at the table tennis room as the guys were going back and we had to return the key so yupps . after having mac, we went to the gym to carry weights. thereafter we played badminton till 2pm then went home. so yupps .
overall i guess it was not bad ? X)) . haha . sirens rocks rite? LOL! . okok . crappy.
chaos!
p.s. i guess being emo is just a part of me. Xpp . LOL!
posted by shutupworld 5:28 PM
ppl still don't trust me.
hello world
tmr's de camp and i'm not done with packing !! . anyways ... trust is so important man. people still dun understand me. moreover they are the closest people. it maybe care but wth u dun have to ask me more than 3 times rite? damn .
packing bag is such a chore ! . dang .
chaos.
p.s. cheese? lol . iaspiretobeanindependentgirlwhenigrowup. X).
posted by shutupworld 8:28 PM
everyday's a monday!!
hello world!
today went to collect the new car . XD . i'm so gonna miss my old car lol . Xd. bought new badminton shoes, pants, a monday shirt !! XD . tada no more lol . i'm like trying to borrow my sec sch uniform!! . XD . count down to camp ./.... 1 day!!! XD
chaos!
p.s. i hope everything would go on as planned . ( cross fingers) . i hope it'll be a rawking cool camp ! . Xpp
posted by shutupworld 11:59 PM
updates!!
hello world
thurs...
met rachel, lisa and may siew for movie at e-hub . watched the japanese version of de f4 show. lol . so yupps . was kinda surprisingly nice actually . XD . anyways .. may siew left early and the threesome went to town for lunch and window shopping ! . ate loadsa stuff and bought myself a bracelet. X)) . haha . so yupps . random pictures!!~~ . oh ya .. they even intend to make me over omgosh . faints. i dun wan !! . blehh!! HAHA .
pictures!!!~~~
rach, may siew, lisa , me. X)
rach, me, lisa. XD
lastly..... ME!
i was forced to take this.! . XD .
friday....
today, had trng in the morning as coach requested lol . so yupp . had quite a session of badminton.won some matches and lost some. trng was quite relaxed cause most of us had stomach muscle ache. lol .mine's still aching. walking like a friggin pregnant woman. lol! . haha . camp is 2 days away!! . omgosh . i'm pretty scared plus excited ! . XD .
chaos!
p.s. training myself to be patient and stronger.
posted by shutupworld 9:33 PM
adults are wierd
hello world
is it me or is it just i feel that nobody's listening to me talk nowadays? hmmm. my issue with confidence ain't done yet. not at all. i think mouse can't even hear me ba . ( * taps and shakes computer mouse) . LOL! . XD.
anyways ... i somehow feel that camp stuff still isn't fully settled yet. lol . sigh ... alicia . hang in there? . lol . i'm dying .. ( white flag half raised) . lol
todays training ... ok lo . considered quite slack actually. but i could feel my stomach muscle kinda aching lol. now i can't really straighten my back and walk straight . i was watching my drama a while ago and i just sat at the couch refusing to move lol. stupid aches . arghh .
on my way back in the train... there was these 2 uncles. omgosh . they have a friggin auntie attitude kinda gossiping about how women in singapore are so career minded and not knowing how to start a family and all and their ideal wife would be one who would be 24/7 at home and looking after the kids and all. lol . ( SO TYPICAL! . they hold no respect for women can ! . stay at home 24/7 is it cause you want more freedom so as to have more social time outside or is it that your job got stolen by some women who's stronger than u?! ) lol . thats damn stupid can . its not as if the kids is the mother's responsibility. father's have too you know. ( selfish uncle thinkings) . They also said about family teachings is more important in school lol. true but don't you think that school's teaching is important too?like u said school teach wad?! like wth such a sweeping statement !! school doesn't teach, teachers does. they educate in every aspect. honestly i was inspired by teachers more than being inspired by my parents. and they have been really supportive. those uncles must really wake up man . where their children spend most time at ? in school ain't it? lol . well. its the foundation that is important and the family values luh. if you have this kinda thinking banning your child from doing this or that you're just depriving him/her of childhood.
then they carried on with the singaporean children saying about their gaming life and all. like come on la they have their own interest. if their interest is gaming then let them play but just control the amt of hours they are spending on it and don't let it affect their studies. ain't it better? if you just ban them from it they may just defy you lol. everything done in moderation is ideal. anything too much or too little isn't good as well. balanced lifestyle is a promoted kinda phrase ain't it? so what if women are career minded. they can be family and career minded at the same time ain't it ?! .
anyways . after hearing those uncles i honestly feel that seriously uncles can be such gheys. so cliche plus bitching like some aunties that gg all the time. i doubt aunties wouldn't even talk about this kinda topic out of the house can. ( 3 cheers for those uncles . claps) . so qian da . thinking they are refined and all . come on ! . bitching about people in the train is just equivalent to finding trouble yourself luh . uncles wake up la eh>? urgh ....
erks..
chaos.
p.s. cliche. influence.. ( ain't it coming back from the adults as well?!?!) . lol .
posted by shutupworld 11:27 PM
another screwed up day.
hello world
woke up on time went to school for training couldn't find that uncle then started trng at 10am ... lol . had hardcore physical ( in which my butt bone is aching now) . lol . T.T. wasn't in form to play well today. seriously just didn't really have the mood to play well lol . finally found the guy got the key and he was kinda repremanding me lo. anyways I DON"T CARE! lol . anyways .... i friggin forgot to find terence to ask abt the table tennis timings . so anyways ... abt 5pm ... i received a call from the key guy asking abt the key ... so omgosh had to travel all the way back to sch just to hand over the key to some friggin table tennis guy who gave me a face blacker than justice bao. thank lord i reached home just in time for my show . XD . lol . so yupp . tmr have to beg for the stupid fcking key AGAIN!. this is damn boring . having to get key which is practically = to mission impossible everytime cause I'M SO SUAY ! always go there he not at his desk . thanks man . u are not so short lo . but y i can't see u everytime sia. this is wierd man . oh wells . there goes another day. i feel so friggin tired wid all the commotion and trainings . haha
chaos !
p.s. oh man i oso dun wish to start at 8am !! .
posted by shutupworld 9:11 PM
the weather is crazy! god's angry? hmmm MAYBE!!!
hello world
omgosh . rain sunny rain rain sunny heavy rain then sunny again!! . wad kind a weather is this?!?! i no clothes to wear alrdy luhh !!! . T.T HAHA .
anyways . met sec sch clique to go to sentosa for beach volley and more games lol. haha . met them after having lunch. so yupp. went to siloso beach settled down. played volleyball . honestly... after playing for quite a while my hand was hurting like crazy. as if there were thousands of bruises on my hands ! XD . so yupp played a little of frisbee. then we played dodge ball. omgosh from there u could actually see who were the violent ones can ! ( i'm not violent ! hohoho. X)p. ). haha .
kkz gtg now . tmr still have trng in the morning.
chaos!
p.s. i want abbs not fats! XD
posted by shutupworld 11:10 PM
