this feel like crap
hello world
so today woke up early and went to pray my ancestors at a temple in the morning. went to meet up with cousins at marina barrage for some filming for samantha brown show. went over to her hse thereafter and had dinner and i'm back at home... my computer just dun seem to wanna function. properly. fug. X(..
i hate bickering. seriously hurts me to the max. prolly u may not be seeing this nor reading. but i just need to rant. hate it when i'm treated this way. i wished u'd understand but i dun think u do.
fug.
alicia ... please get a decent life please do yourself a favour. stop being such a dog . know what you want please...
chaos
p.s. it just feels like stress and emotions are overwhelming me. and fug those mosquito bites... fug fug fugfugfugfufgufugfgfgfugfugfugfgg...
posted by shutupworld 12:26 AM
WTH
HELLO WORLD
I'M STILL AS BUSY AS EVER... I'VE GOT SO MUCH THINGS ON MY HAND AND I CAN'T LET GO ANYONE OF THEM!! THIS IS DRIVING ME NUTTSSSSSS!!! shit man
ntu admissions requires 2 essays and a portfolio... thanks man... A0 panels by tmr and i'm still not done yet.. thanks yet again... shit !!.. rawwhhhhhh....
do u think i like this kinda busy life?! huh ! huh ! .... damn .. i hate this..
anyways life has been good actually except all these nonsense...
chaos
p.s. independence is what i am lacking now.
posted by shutupworld 10:41 PM
wad a joke.
hello world
last day of nus administration and guess wad!? they actually scheduled for maintenance today! haha .. hilarious... hope they revive the system.
filing is such a chore. editing starts now... printing's later
later~~
chaos
p.s. struggling to keep my mind on track.
posted by shutupworld 10:22 AM
is money that important?hmmm
hello world
so today i invited some of my classmates to my hse for lunch as a new year gathering. X).. kelly i'm really sorry man ... and i really feel bad about it.. aiyooooooo...... okok ... drop tt topic. anyways thanks mum for preparing everything . haha . although i did a small job for plucking taugays. haha .! . plucking tau gays can be such a chore... anyways... thanks all for coming ! XDD... we shall have another gathering again ..!!~~ haha ....
i'm filling up the application form now.... for nus and my dad's stopping me from taking psychology as my first choice... hearing that there is essays for tests freaks me out... i don't know what i am strong at and wad am i really weak at cause i know i'll just do my very best. i don't seem to be liking anything except photography, events management, wedding planner... hmmmm ..... i like organising... but it doesn't really seem to be my forte.
my current course, landscape architecture, i am ok with it but it just seems scarier. its as if i am drowned in the world of designing which creates stress so much so that i have completely lost my identity. is it for the better or not? hmmm i'm not very sure...
i guess as we move along we get to see more of the ugly side of human nature and eventually losing the innocence we have had.
i understand that my parents wants me to excel well in my future so that i can earn a living and be a successful person. but here's the catch, all they want is me to have money, more money and more more money... hmmm here's a solution. why don't i work in the monetary deparment in the printing section. best solution isn't it?
i really don't understand why natural resources needs to use money to buy it. in the first place isn't it just buy and selling then why do we have economic crisis? even thou i've studied a little of economics but i just don't get the supply and demand part. isn't it just earth supplying and us providing and selling it? huh?! selling is the word again .. earth gave us for free... human made it expensive isn't it?
hmmm ..... makes some sense right?
dad don't understand my stand.
is life all about hate and prejudice??
is the world that unfair?
i guess so..
chaos
p.s. printing panes tmr . submission on monday for portfolio
posted by shutupworld 9:24 PM
wth
hello world
apparently someone report my blog as abusive in facebook. how hilarious nonsense.. hmmm wadever. anyways ... just had test today and it was really crazy... but oh wells its ok i didn't really study luhhh . haha ...
entire class gathering for lunch today ! ... hoho ...
nus application i've no idea how.... on earth m i gonna hand it up in time.. great... go down? hmmm .. wadever...
chaos
p.s. like WHAT?! haha .... zham zham zham !
posted by shutupworld 1:09 PM
i know you don't mean it but....
hello world
and yes i'm busy again... damn ... exams tmr... gosh and i haven finish studying.. damnn.... fug fugfugfugfugfugfugfugfug
okayy .. back to study.
chaos
p.s. emo much
posted by shutupworld 9:39 PM
501 post!!!
hello world
went to kelly's hse today ! .... haha ... had fun with her WII.. haha .... lalalalla... i think i was damn noisy? Xpp... lalalalla... enjoy much. X)
psp test on thurs. T.T ... 2 days and i add 2 kg to my weight .. how nice... damnn....
run tmr morning to perk myself up.
chaos
p.s. i don't deserve to be treated like this
posted by shutupworld 12:22 AM
everybody seems
hello world
so yep my cousins just left a while ago... anyways just had a random thought... i dread growing up/... how i wish i would just be stuck in my childhood and never grow up. but i know thats never possible... this world is way too cruel and one day we have to face it.
but i love my childhood and i treasure it alot.. X)
anyways here are some of the pics we took yesterday and the day before ! . XDD
MY NAILS!!!.. i did this. hohohohoohohoho///
me and sis
family
reunion dinner
grace me bell
camwhores
chaos
p.s.iwannaholdon.butnevereverletme.
posted by shutupworld 12:28 AM
AHHHHHH!!! BA KWAAAA!!!!
hello world
haha ... i'm been spamming myself with loads of ba kwa which is really BAD!!!!.. running partner ! we have to go run le la ! .. haha . shed fats shed fats shed shed shed ! ..!! . XDD... i think i'll justK.O at 1 click . LOL! . lmao... anyways..... there was like 3 types of ba kwa yesterday man ! . oh gosh ! . so crazy... first was bacon ba kwa then this honey glazed ba kwa and the normal one ! . AHHHH!!! ... crazy to the max... and there was this chi ku chips which was damn good... which resulted in a sore throat this morning.. T.T ... played taboo with cousins yesterday and screamed like madness . i lagged a whole lot. yep... screams. hahahaha . we camwhored with a different cam this yr ... a dslr was used! . hohoho... crystal clear can ! . i wanna buy one!!!..
they're coming today tooo!!!. X)).. kelly's hse tmr !~~ .
chaos!
p.s. i'd just wish it was complete.
posted by shutupworld 1:26 PM
happy new yr and happy v day and happy bd to my dad !
hello world!!
woohoo 3 in 1 this yr ... phew. so busy.... anyways ... i love new yrs ! . XDDD... hohoho hearts hearts hearts hearts. X))..
had reunion dinner out this yr with cousins. X)... photos to be uploaded another day ! . woohooo~~~.. so happening . yay !! .. this yrs new game ...... taboooo... XDD... never played before so yep! ... ^^ ... love...
HAPPY CNY!!! . XDDDDDDDD
ok .... i got high on red wine today.
chaos
p.s. wooohoooooooooooooo...
posted by shutupworld 12:59 AM
people....
hello world
so i'm in school now. teacher's late by 45 mins and still not here yet ... damn .. so long.. zzzzz... dozing off ... lol.. studio's so exceptionally cold today.
its like a mask over ur face. i guess i can tell the emotions?
new yrs SUNDAY!!! hohoho .... bell ! macs for new yr eve? haha .... our yearly tradition. X). HAHA!..
chaos
p.s. don't let 1 min of unhappiness affect hours of your emotions
posted by shutupworld 2:14 PM
ached.
hello world
my presentation today was surprisingly ok . X) . haha ... only some stuff to be ammended. X) . all of us who were to present today came damn early . haha .. kiasu us. Xppp...
after school went to bugis to find my dad's bd present but to no avail.
chaos
p.s. my heart sched for u damn badly today. X(.
posted by shutupworld 12:20 AM
happy for all. X).
hello world
i've been aching all over since this morning... its so bad that when i hold my phone my phone actually shakes damn badly. in other words means my right hand is malfunctioning. haha .. hilarious much? hmm. anyways ... went arcade today for a while and couldn't take the noise... horrid.
sometimes i really wonder and doubt....
chaos
p.s. do u even care?
posted by shutupworld 2:17 PM
OVERRR!!!
hello world
ZOMG! 7 weeks of gruesome dwelling of project is finally over... phew. i'm so sick of projects rite now... all i want is to enjoy but go where? I DUNNO!!. HAHA!!... dumb rite? . hmmm.... i spent 70 bucks on panels and portfolio today... damn yes i know...
emotions these few weeks have been reallly rough ... it has been like a turmoil. horridly bad. seriously bad. but now i'm seriously free from all the rushing... happy at the same time sad thou.
i shall plan where to go and what to do for this whole week and enjoy!. hohoho .... hehehe ... ngahahahaha....
i love my marketing portfolio cause of the picture!!! XDDDDDD... hearts !
chaos
p.s. i just love black and white photography. X).
posted by shutupworld 11:18 PM
I NEED TO RANT!!!
HELLO WORLD
THE REASON WHY I AM HERE AND ITS IN CAPS BECAUSE I'M DOING WORK AND NEED TO RANT!... FORGOTTEN ONCE AGAIN. FEELING SUCK. SHIT CRAP SUCK BADLY. FUGFUGFUGFUGFUFGUFGUGF... WADEVER LA ..
I'M PLANNING WAD TO DO NOW. I'M ALWAYS PLANNING SHIT!. NO TIME CAN .... FUG FUG FUG FUG FUGF FGU .. I CAN'T EVEN TYPE PROPERLY.
FUG
SHIT..
MONDAYS SUBMISSION.
PRINT PANELS TMR.
FUG.
CHAOS
P.S. I HATE BEING FORGOTTEN.
posted by shutupworld 12:38 PM
black nails.
hello world
hoho i just painted my nails black.. X)).. i felt so frustrated today. really . bloody bad. i felt as if i was gonna kill some one today. i feel so stressed up although i'm finishing it hopefully on time.. i'm so tired. mentally . physically i'm shivering. my muscles seemingly malfunctioned. my stomach seemed to go against me. everything just seemed so wrong today. disappearing from this instance. to concentrate and do the work with quality .
it just seems so hard.
i don't even know myself anymore.
chaos
p.s. so near yet so far. so hard to reach. so hard to find. so hard to understand. i'm sorry i can't be perfect.
posted by shutupworld 6:47 PM
all the whys.
hello world
this morning appeared to be really fine until a while ago thou . expectations. nah its not about it . its again about respect for decisions. everybody works differently. and wad she wants? a friggin final process . its really nuts. i'm going nuts in fact. this project hasn't been an enjoyable one at all... not one single bit i'm liking. but i'm still trying to at this really last instance.
i seem to have alot of things to do and complete. thinking always comes last. i hope i can pull through.
back to frigging work .
chaos
p.s. everything revolves about you and you only. i'm kinda disappointed
posted by shutupworld 10:00 AM
last lap
hello world
checklist ! ... gosh i need one.! .
i'm gonna be done with all my plans ... so thats 5 plans altogether . yup . details half done ... 1 more to think ! ... damn ... i'm damn scared la ! .
panels is actually in place thou but will be redoing it a lil ...
things to be done ....
- profile section
- details
- sketchup plus montage
- panels
- section edits for green wall.
other than ir3.....
- marketing portfolio.
- ( anything else??) hmmm
let me know if i missed out anything? haha ... cost estimate needed??? i've no idea... its like speculating when we have not much time left .
chaos
p.s. i seriously need help in sketchup ! ! ! !!!!!!
posted by shutupworld 11:43 PM
