i think i'm really fickle. beautifulsunrise.inspiringphotographyskills. 
just finished supper ! . lol . weight gains !. XD . anyways ... camp stuff isn't settled AT ALL! . damn . anyways ... i think i'm really fickle man. everything i do is like neither here nor there. i can't make a clear cut decision. damn . ( alicia stop dreaming wake up!!) . lol.
mum keeps asking me to slp early... my system is so hay wire lol.
ok .. today is the eat-crap-food day. lol . i had breakfast, lunch, teabreak, dinner and supper. lol . this crazy girl just had supper in which she ate 1.5 bowls of tom yum instant noodles plus other stuff lol.
went j8 today too. lol . at ntuc one auntie was telling us ( me and my dad) that there was this lady who was choosing oranges as well. so my dad asked her if she was done yet. so she said yupp soon . then she told us that the small boy actually went beside her and threw de big red apples back to the orange section. then turned to her and spat at her. after hearing i was shocked . lol . then she said what an upbringing. seriously. i agree with her.omgosh...
THATS WHY I HATE KIDS! . lol !
i think my metabolism rate went up. appetite is crazily good. and erm ... i duuno why but nowadays being alone just becomes so natural. like a therapy? hmmm . i'm wierd . :X HAHA .
chaos !
p.s. how i wish i could witness a sunrise one day.
posted by shutupworld 11:14 PM
omgomgomgomgomgomgomg!!!! PANDA EYES!!!!.. NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
random pic while doodling. X)
hello world
i was stuck at home the entire day. baaaa... T.T . boring . but fortunately i've got my teevee and people to talk to online! . convers were quite interestingly funny actually. XD . got to catch up with my long lost fren... something happened but luckily she's alright now. X) . gotta take care my fren . ^^ .
camp badminton trainings are making me go mad. little things like this omgosh !!!! . damn training timings all screwed . SHE DAMMIT OVERLOOKED MY DAMMIT EMAIL!?!?!?!?! damnnn.. argh . ( breathe alicia breathe!!).
HOPE I CAN GET THE TIMINGS!
anyways .... drew some stuff in the afternoon. ( the cause of boredom) .
chaos!
p.s. fats fats fats.... outline outline outline ( panda eyes)..... nags nags nags nags..
posted by shutupworld 8:26 PM
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! XD
hello world
today woke up at 9.18am prepared to go back to bds... left hse at 10am was 15 mins late to meet the rest. so anyways... i tot i was de kinda not the earliest. however it turned out to be me being sort of the first to reach lol. anyways... met shi then went in to find ray. so yupp. was a little surprised at how much and drastic the school had changed in terms of the outlook and all. saw loadsa new teachers but luckily.... the teachers that had taught us didn't change.. X)). haha .
( sigh most of them couldn't remember our names lo) ... XD .
mr yao a.k.a lao yao.... all time fav teacher . XD . its really lucky to have him teaching us for 5 straight years. X)). i guess he made chinese lessons meaningful and enriching. X)
mrs mah wow. inspiration man. XD . english lessons are like mundane and all but sometimes, it can be quite interesting . X).
ms shek. omgosh. i think i did disappoint her with my comb. humanities results back then. haha . but seriously i was jumping when i got a d7! . i'm serious!! . haha . i never passed never!!. i always got a f9. so yupp. Xpp. but she's a really great teacher. X)) haha .
i guess overall for our last yr in bds we were really lucky to have all the best teachers man. esp chemistry. i guess that was de most disastrous subject we ever faced throughout the first 2 yrs. i could still remember mrs djie's face when she asked if we knew what was moles and atoms and the equation thingy. we were like lost when she said all those and her face only wrote 3 words. 'oh my gosh!' haha .
conclusion.... secondary school life was a really crazy whirl plus interesting . X)) .
chaos!
p.s. till we meet again . X)
posted by shutupworld 11:27 PM
random...
hello world
i'm so into my show lol . Xpp . inspirations in which will never happen in my life no matter how realistic it portrayed. bahahahaha . Xpp .
had driving lesson today. omgosh!! i can park le !!. hohoho . shall improve more on it mannn . hohoho . Xpp.
^^. my fingers are PURPLE now !! . X)) . haha . change of colour. blehh...
chaos!
p.s.hahahhahaha.lol.
posted by shutupworld 6:47 PM
FUN!!! .
hello world !
the next few weeks would be fun with training man ! . lol .
great dad just came out and scolded me.
chaos.
p.s. told u i was a controlled kid lol. sigh...
posted by shutupworld 1:43 AM
EC!!!. ( crazy girl)
hello world
okay this crazy girl here says greeting earthlings!. HAHA . =.=
( now u can see the level of my random boredness level?) its high. X)
anyways ... chn u has got this korean drama pure 19? omgosh!!! ec alert! . this is crazy... but seriously got me glued to the tv screen!!! . T.T . haha . lol . korean actors are oh so cute ! . :X . ( oh no. i have to have shield protectors) . Xp. haha . but seriously he is one super big ec ! . bleh.
SEO JI-SUK IS HIS NAME!! . bahahaha . (crazy girl dream somemore la).
omgosh...his smile is so mesmerising. pls exclude the eye bags. LOL! . ( eh ! wake up !!) XD
somebody please knock me out? XD . lol .
chaos!
p.s. (hugs teevee). i only wan teevvee. Xp.
posted by shutupworld 11:51 PM
stop pigging !
hello world
omgosh! . this is random random bored alicia post lol . haha . i've been eating non stop today!! . crazy girl here ate 10 packets of wan wan, 2 pieces of apple, 3 snake skin fruit, 2 spoons of rice, 2 rice bowls of noodles,2 ang gu kueh 5 bowls of soup, 2 glasses of liang cha, a plate of fried rice, one kosong and 1 egg prata, and erm i dunno how many glasses of water.
this is crazy man ! . crazy!!.. girl stop torturing urself by eating so irregularly. sigh ... stomache please bare with my craziness. lol . probably its due to de weather lol . ITS SO FRIGGIN COLD LA! . T.T . okayy .... shall shed fats tmr. Xpp. i wanna go roller blading but the weather doesn't allow me to lol. my house just feels like a fridge inside out man. damn bloody cold. seems like autumn. HAHA . i think it is. okayy . this pig is gonna bath the 3rd time for the day. ( i told u i'm crazy) . lol . lame lame lame.! .
learntsomethingfromalittlesomeone. >.<. youdon'tneedextraordinaryfriendstobeextraordinary. youjustneedsincerecaringfriendstobehappy. X).
chaos!
p.s. i painted my nails!! . show u later~! . Xpp. lol .
tada my nails! . haha . i only managed to do for my left hand cause my left hand keeps shaking while doing for my right lol T.T . HAHA. Xp
posted by shutupworld 10:10 PM
randomly back.
dusk.
things so new, i hardly knew
it was all there, i didn't care
words so meaningful, i read it through
i reflected and understood
i saw it happen, i saw it crumble
all so fast, i hardly apprehend
through it all, oh so numb
i need time, time to comprehend
why did this happen, why this world is so unfair
my world is dead, do u even care?
i am here, i am now
i've no idea when i'm gonna fall, when i'm gonna....
i'm lost for words, i've lost my past
but all i know, i've never known
changes in life is never ending
anything can happen, anything can change
all i can do now, is just to be true and not just sustain
i'm tired, i'm ignored, i'm alone, i'm real,
i'm me.
cheerstomyscrewedlife.cheerstoitall.
todayi'mnotgonnacare,
tomorrowi'mgonnawalkaway,
thisisallcrap
i don't give a damn.
chaos
p.s. secondhand serenade and the red jumpsuit apparatus is love.
posted by shutupworld 6:48 PM
last post for nw...
one last pic! i drew it for my new note book! . X)
hello world
well i was almost late for sch today.. XD. fortunately i wasn't so yupp. hmmm presentations today was overall ok ? i guess? hmmm .
i would be abandoning my blog for some time.. i need peace. i need to soul search. i need privacy. XD . so yupp . i shall be faithful to my diary lol. lmao. so yupp;.. will be back soon !!!> X).
loves.
chaos.
p.s. ceci thanks for tagging!. kelly thanks for cheering me on all these while. appreciate it really . X)).
I SAW MY KINDERGARDEN BUS UNCLE TODAY!!! . HAHA . he can still remember me lo . XD
i shall train hard and get back to my crazy stamina and fitness level plus skills i had before. i wanna be stronger. i want my determination and find my passion in the game. i wanna play as if i enjoyed every moment and winning or losing wasn't a consideration. its just the entire process. i wanna learn from my mistakes and move on. i wanna play well and hope i can inspire the team and not let their spirits fade. X). add oil to me ! . haha
posted by shutupworld 8:19 PM
stupid backaches!!
hellow world
my backached quite badly today.. its aching till now. i'm sitting as straight as i can. played badminton wid sis a while ago. she's loads better man but her grip of the racket and service is wrong. nvm .. shall help her correct it . XD . she's got strength man. HAHA... hey say thank you! i'm praising u !!. LMAO!
was decorating my book . my new book during crit today. no worries to those presenting i was listening and looking at ur panels okay . haha . i can multi task! ., Xpp. LOL! .
i think my appetite is kinda down. i dun really taste the food lo. wierd.
chaos
p.s. omgosh ... it still hurts badly. now i understand wad they mean by backbreaking CAUSE IT FEELS LIKE THIS! .
posted by shutupworld 8:18 PM
total embarrassment
hello world.
omgosh! yest was so pai seh can. i mistook no. 5 as no. 9 . then i sat all the way to safra then i asked the bus driver...
me: uncle does this bus go bedok interchange? ( cos no. 9 terminates at bedok inter)
uncle: erm no.
me: is this no. 9 ??
uncle: (paused)... erm no its no. 5
me: wad?! 5?!?! crap. okayy then erm... how can i go to beok inter?
uncle: u alight at nxt stop take bus from there.
lol . stupid. pure stupidity. argh ...
today... finally passed up project lo... like finally. so yupp. after tt went wid the grp to fico for lunch and the guys played soccer. we joined in later on but we didn't play. lol . haha . played dai di for hmmm erm 1.5hrs straight? so yupp. left the place at 3.30... slpt in the train like a zombie tt didn't slp for ages. nodding away on the glass. lol . haha . i guess everyone was tired. XD .
I SO WANNA GET A GUITAR AND LEARN IT! stupid cp making me JEALOUS! . HAHA . chicken wing ! u shall be my free tutor. hohoho . Xpp
anyways for those who are gonna be presenting tmr jia you yea ? X))
chaos.
p.s. i think i drink too little water
posted by shutupworld 7:10 PM
welcome to my screwed world.
posted by shutupworld 2:10 PM
project....
made me realise alot of things...
chaos,
p.s. so gonna finish it up today.
bubble tea today again . XD . loves . i spent in tota of 60 bucks today lo
posted by shutupworld 7:33 PM
body language.
hello world
today was kinda long day of project . i feel like a living corpse. lol. still doing without any emotions. like a friggin pig shit slogging like a mad cow witha stupid thing called projects. how nice.
chaos
p.s. i slippedduetoemotions. ilooklikeahardcorehater. i don't believe in trust in sincerity. i see all the sarcasm. i feel so numb. i'mfightingalone.idon'tknow u.
i'mreal.onlywithamask.
i guess i'm used to being ignored, isolated and sarcasm being thrown at my face. help to refill oso get snapped at my face. i've to face it its my fate. ha ha ha.
and to those people who thinks that short hair means les. wth can. then guys long hair means ghey meh? the theory seriously.... WAKE UP LA!. dammit. people keep asking me to keep long hair. seriously does length matter? does image matter? i think the most important is your thinking. if u judge a person by looks you will get no where. hair depicts a person's tidyness level. if i keep long hair i very well know tt i won't have the patience and time to actually upkeep it. so would u rather a neat short hair or a long and unkept hair? definitely a neat short hair rite? moreover i'm in a sporting cca i would not want my hair to be in my vision. its really irritating. lol . so stop asking me to keep long hair! . i will one fine day try it. but it won't be anytime now.
its 8.40 now and i've not started! great. enuf of rest time girl. go do work! . the f word just comes out so naturally. and yes. i'm not liking a single bit. damn the environment and setting in class. i can't concentrate.
posted by shutupworld 6:13 PM
influence
hello world
this morning dad enlightened me with this phrase which i think was really interesting. ' earth does not belong to man. man belongs to the earth.' it got me thinking.
i really thought the phrase was really simple yet deep. X)
spent my day with juniors and project. lol . was quite funny la. my racket string broke... my stroke was okay but gastric attacks and the heat overwhelmed me. also cause of the lack of sleep which made me really giddy lol . 2nd day bubble tea . same flavour as usual . PASSION FRUIT RED TEA!!! hohoho. whoever invented bubble tea is a genius! XD
chaos!
p.s. its a perfect world. not.
posted by shutupworld 9:19 PM
monday.....
ok today went school earlier. lol . so yupp . did quite a bit of work today.completed sections and kelly helped me with perspectives. so yupp . sry for not joining u ppl thou. i haven been like talking/ going back wid u ppl for quite a while. neither have i gone to wx's hse to do work for the past 3 days. really sry. anyways . jia you ! . when i'm done i'll help u ppl . provided i'm able to help thou . XD .
overall today was kinda still in blurr mode. lol . but still did quite a bit of work . shall do some rough sketches for my details today and finalise it tmr after asking teacher. so yupp. i'm so gonna chiong finish by tmr . and photoshop on wed ! X)) . hohoho . lol .
music makes my world go round. HAHA. lol !
chaos.
p.s. jimmyeatworldthemiddle.
posted by shutupworld 8:16 PM
not much time left.
hello world
i tot it was time to change my blog song . so yupp . my sis got me hooked on this song. HAHA .
ok went to print my section this morning . kinda wtshit lol . nvm shall not say it here. just damn the noob who served us. HAHA . anyways ... i'm not done wid perpective yet! . rawhh .. lol . i'm so lagging behind . alicia jia yoU! . haha .
okok shall go cong liang now.
thanks to those who have been cheering me on !! . X)) . haha . u all too yea !! jia you for project or de upcoming semestral exams .! . loves
chaos.
p.s. rapids.
posted by shutupworld 9:02 PM
lol . 08 08 08 . HAHA . Xpp
hello world !
today was kinda like one of the craziest days... woke up at I DUNNO WAD TIME .. mum said join them for breakfast and blurrly i looked at my watch AND GUESS WAD its was only 6.05AM!!! . lol! . super shocked lol . anyways .. had zai mee fen in the morning with my parents.. then reached sch at 7.35 lol . super early .. so i started readin my final theory test. oh well finalised my planting and material like finally lol . hmmm ... sections to be drawn by tmr and i learnt sketchup today . X)) . haha .
driving lesson today was a horror. lol . i was practically in a daze... literally blur! . damn blur! . probably cos of the lack of sleep. instructor ask me to go i still stop. in the end .... i stopped exactly at the friggin pedestrian crossing half a car exactly in between lol . dang . anyways .... another one was the turn left part... wasn't suppose to stop lo . the stupid car didn't move can . oh well... one more was not my fault!!! . the stupid car do stunt like 'stunt' park car need to reverse go head go a stern go head again then astern again. some idiot . i'm fcking parking the car and u do all those stunt at the back where i have to park at ?! dang wadssup wid these ppl nowadays! . o o another one is about the taxi . super idiot... from the left lane ... at the traffic light the moment the traffic light turned green, he swerved from the left lane and skipped 2 lanes going to de right. lol . ok ... nevermind.... i drove all the way to queenstown mrt station .. ( WITHOUT KNOWING THAT I"VE DROVE THAT FAR!) ... instructor alighted me there .. unknowingly and stupidly . . . I TOT THAT WAS CLEMENTI!!! . damn ... i took the train and just pop on to my i pod and listened all the way to lakeside . yes LAKESIDE! then i realised i was on the wrong train! . ok so bloody blur can . anyways . luckily i was on time for my fft . i passed! . HEHE . X)) . haha . so yupp will be getting my practical test. X)) . hhahaha . babe !! i'm tagging behind lol! . haha . i shall pwn u wid driving license . hohoho .XPp .
chaos!
p.s. i shall have a good night's rest. X)) . takecare my friends. ^^
dang stupid sore eye plus my jaw is like on the verge of locking . T.T . my eye is tearing like none stop . dang .
posted by shutupworld 7:10 PM
WAKE UP!
hello world
omgosh my fav korean drama is so sad now can . ! . okok tts random . anyways didn't have much mood to do my project lol. i feel so wierd. one moment my mind tells me to give up. one moment its like asking me to cling on dun let go. WHATSSUP WID ME?>!??!?! dang . i really feel like giving up man . but i know i can't. dang . 1 more darn week and i've got so many things not finalised yet. i've no mood to do . seriously no mood. i just feel like having badminton training the entire week and numb myself. i've been running away from reality lately. everything is like accumulating inside of me. i think sooner or later i mite blow! . kaboom ! . lmao! . HAHA . okok tts lame. i won't literally blow up la. its just bottled. i'm back to the quiet me.. X) . the me with thoughts the whole day round ... i wanna have the passion i used to have once upon a time....
chaos
p.s. jiayou jiayou! . eh! fill up tt friggin hole!! .
crap... i just shouted at my mum. damn .
posted by shutupworld 8:30 PM
lol! habits... T.T
hello world
lol . i'm so friggin worned out now. lol . although training today was not so tough today.. my eyes are on the verge of closing!. lol . may siew told me she don't seem to have the sam passion for badminton anymore lol . i had tt feeling once actually but not anymore!. cos its the people that make it so fun and enjoyable. X)). haha . feel so myself whenever i'm in badminton. probably cause it has been with me since young ? XD . oh well
CHIONG PROJECT TIME!! lmao . colouring never felt like a chore ! . stupid copic markers no ink la! . T.T
chaos...
p.s. tea, coffee?? lmao..
posted by shutupworld 10:15 PM
wtshit!
hello world.
omgosh this is gonna be so personal;... i hate this feeling lingering inside. just fcking get outta of my sytem wouldcha!? damn. anyways . i had a day of unhealthy food. lunch had pasta mania../. kfc for dinner. omgosh . probably i shall have another week of healthy food nxt wk again. X)). haha . lol . i shall train hard tmr ! . hohoho . shed fats shed fats! rawhhahahaha... lol .
chaos!
p.s. "OH NO!!! I'M getting B-I-G-G-E-R-!-!-!-!-! ", SAYS MY STOMACH!!!!
posted by shutupworld 8:13 PM
morning.!. goodbyex.
hello world.
i guess karma do exist in this world. a few days back got to know that 'z' got into the hospital. honestly it wasn't so much of the shock. it was more of the wad happened? lol . oh well. not my problem . i don't care! . XD . lol . anyways ... 2 whole weeks to complete the project!!! ... jittery jitters. XD . lmao .! jia you everyone! . ^^.
PASTA MANIA HERE I COME!!!!! HOHOHO> X))
chaos!
p.s. getwellsoon. NOT! bahahaha . joking .
posted by shutupworld 10:04 AM
gastrics!.! T.T
hello world
omgosh gastric attack again! . T.T. hate it. anyways today was practically working and touching up on my friggin plan. okay it took me the entire day lol. i sketched a little thou. was quite ok la. lol. still haven think about the shelter at the reading area yet. i dun think i can think anymore today. totally drained out. tmr i shall start colouring my big plan... now i shall do drainage and level plan . less taxing . X)) . ahaha . i shall slp after i'm done wid wad i wanna do. X)) .
cheeros! .
p.s. yay! . pastamania after so so so so so so s o decades long ago. YES! it felt this long although its only been 4 whole months ! . XD
posted by shutupworld 10:44 PM
100th post.!
hello world
today's the 100th post since i started bloggin lol. so fast rite? XD. anyways . thanks to shiling who got me started. X)) . haha. chionging for project now. so in the mood to do project. Xpp. jia you everyone! . X))
wordswithspikes...ironiclytrue.
chaos
p.s. microstation really sucks.
posted by shutupworld 12:58 PM
truth hurts.
hello world.
y is the title truth hurts today? i oso dunno HAHA . okok actually truth always hurt ain't it? i know many people can't accept me for me. over heard some guys making nasty comments which they thought i couldn't hear while i was on my way for driving lesson yesterday. this world is filled with cruelty and lies. if you say ur world is perfect. u're lying. nothing is perfect in this world no matter what you do.
cutting hair later! . fringe too long. lol . pimples coming out . XD .
chaos!
p.s. oureyestellsusall.
posted by shutupworld 4:26 PM
thoughts..
hello world.
as usual played viwawa with frens in the morning. omgosh will get bored soon thou. anyways stopped at like 9++ cause ceci and the rest had to prepare mr idris's birthday celebration. so yupp. was kinda funny when we saw mr idris's face. total shock can. lol . could tell he was super surprised. XD
afternoon went to water plant and went for my driving lesson thereafter. learnt new stuff! parking . omgosh . super funny . de reverse part . the car stalled. stupid sia. and when i was allowed to park it by myself... its was slanted . totally ! . XD . lol . so yupp . but oh well i still enjoy driving lessons. XD . loadsa fun plus stupid things.
after driving lesson, went for guy's trng. omgosh my legs are aching like mad!! . like wtheck footwork 5 sets of ( i dunno how many) lol. i can hardly feel the energy running in my legs lol. its like jelly legs now. XD. had dinner with de rest after trng. my dinner was bubble tea totally no appetite. lol . so yupp . had bubble tea . X)
i just bathed the 3rd time today.XD
ireallyadmirepeoplewhocanaccepttheirflawsandmakeitlookgood.
chaos.!
p.s. wierdo BABE!!! thankyou!!Xp.
posted by shutupworld 10:50 PM
