old injury.
hello world !
school was boring but fun in a way thou . boring cause didn't do much except for the ice that we were suppose to do. went lunching with kelly and gang to the zhi cha they were talking about. i had deer meat fried rice and it tasted good thou . X) . so yupp... went running today with pian in the evening. did cover quite a distance but have not timed ourselves yet. XD. lost my elephant keychain while running and went back to find. yupp. sorry to trouble u ! felt bad man. we shall train for the crumpler pouch ! yay ! haha . ran into kelvin today he's looking good man . haha .
alrights shall sleep early . shopping tomorrow project to start. relax then chiong . cool plan? XD... jia you to everyone ! .
chaos!
p.s. mr elephant.
posted by shutupworld 11:08 PM
smiley face. funny returns.
hello world
school was boring. seriously ... teacher briefed about the project today.... was totally lost like literally .. escaped school about 3.30pm went to bugis to get some cream puffs to enlighten my day. actually planned to go run but it was drizzling... so ate a whole lot . prolly due to the weather. hope tomorrow would be a better day. shall plan my time. 4 weeks for the new project. little time loadsa things to do .
my life is like a race against time who waits for no one.
chaos
p.s. imagine a world that surrounds you with chills and spills. reign in this never ending league.
posted by shutupworld 10:31 PM
yay !!!!! finally
hellooo world!
finally 3 days of work..... and tada ! . my very first photoshop cum sketchup perspective of my house.
before.....
after....... X))
so how is it? haha ... feel free to comment on it so that i can improve on it ! . X))
well today feels great and dread. dread to go back to school . great cause i finally completed my very first photoshopped perspective and it turned out not bad and another is... hmmm i guess i shall keep that a secret. XD..
had quite a healthy meal today. shall go run tomorrow to burn out at the same time train for napfa. X)... school's reopening tomorrow!. dread dread dread dread....
chaos!.
p.s. wishes do come true.
posted by shutupworld 10:00 PM
realised.
hello world
i realised i can't control my emotions. patience seems to have disappeared from my dictionary. whats happening. i've no idea. slacked all the way since i woke up till now. gonna try complete my house project by today. hopefully . then continue with my drama.
all the best for all who are having their mst/exams on monday ! . X))... jy !
chaos!
p.s. aiilleeesshaaawaitsforreturn.
posted by shutupworld 2:28 PM
finally.
hello world
finally one day for myself. one entire day with no meet ups no training. no nothing. sit around learn a little bit of things, sort out my thoughts, emotions, feelings and spend time alone. its just the best therapy to shut yourself once in a while away from all the commotion and be left alone.
woke up and saw a really wierd rash on my face and it still is on my face. T.T ... hope it subsides. T.T
chaos.
p.s. lalalalalalalalalalalalaa..
posted by shutupworld 10:12 PM
4 more days. X((
if i could fly..... never in a million years i can do that.
hello world
had trng this morning. and its the 2nd time sweating so much again. sigh .... anyways didn't really put in my all today. was quite disappointed with myself.
went to the library thereafter, borrowed some books. went home with mum. slept in the car. ate at home watch tv till now. planning for tomorrow. lol ....
sometimes when things happen then u realise how paranoid one can be. how impatient things can get. how annoying third parties are. how everything can just crush and backfire. how people step on you even when u treat them nicely. how people treat u as if you were invincible. well.... think and understand. sometimes humans think complicated do things in the hard way when things can just be as simple as A,B,C. gossips are killers, contagious and hurtful.
life's a bitch. we can't deny that for a fact.
i've no idea where has my determination gone to. superbly numb.
chaos.
p.s. sleep,plan,fun,work
posted by shutupworld 11:45 PM
shagg..
hello world
the moment i stepped into my house i just layed flat on the sofa. without lunch . i was tired. super tired. got up made lunch then watched tv. fell asleep thereafter. trng was crazy today. was telling myself... hold on . hold on.. my lungs just gave up on me. prolly i'm still sick tts y. XDD...
badminton outing and meeting kelly in school for badminton .... trng on wed again . haha . jy to me ba . Xpp... i seriously wanna improve. X(.
chaos.
p.s. shed fats shed fats shed fats.!!!
posted by shutupworld 11:59 PM
don't take me for granted.
hello world
omgawd was suppose to wakeup early !!! . but in the end.... T.T . sigh .. anyways ... woke up at 10 and started doing the card. gosh . was 2 hrs late from waking up ... this yr was a very plain year for father's day . i guess dad wasn't very happy thou . thanks to my sis that is. well . can't blame her too . but also partially her fault lo . this yr . due to the late night celebration with my cousin and auntie plus uncle, my sis hadn't had enough time to study and in addition she was too tired so yupp . one man show this yr. i'm glad dad suited the sun glasses and he liked the sports shorts. so . all smiles ! . X)))))) ... hehe ... mum and me went out to da bao dinner which was like chilli crab, man tou and more fried stuff ... lol . super unhealthy but it was nice thou . XDD.. super full thereafter and yupp . thats the end of the father's day. i think today was the most simple fare. and i think it was the most disappointing one for dad. X( . sigh . oh wells.
pictures for today! . 
the card!!
i think i camwhored my dog even more than my dad can . lawl.
pictures from yesterday's gathering. X)) ..
my new shirt! much love. X))))
camwhoreeeee ..!
my bag stands by itself lol !!! . was so shocked when my mum shifted her chair away from my bag . HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
picture from last friday! 
saw this on my way out of my house. it was dead. creepy!.
picture from the aviva open!
i was there ! ( semis! )
chaos!
p.s. people nowadays just don't understand the definition of respect and initiative.
posted by shutupworld 11:22 PM
late.
hello world!
woke up early followed my timetable to do work today. X) . finally started on my house project . haha ... did a pretty simple plan and here it is ....
first time using photoshop to colour a plan . credits to kelly who taught me the basics. X))... seriously i took like 3 hrs just to do this small simple plan can ... noob sia . haha .. Xpp .
so .... tomorrow gonna try doing the sketch using sketchup and photoshop. my com is alot faster now . ^^ . hohoho ... Xpp... anyways ... in the evening played badminton with my dad and uncle joining the usual saturday group in the club to play. i sweated like a pig ! . first time in history ..... MY PANTS WAS TOTALLY WET! .. gawd friggin grossed out... the weather is seriously crazy. ate alot during dinner then went to the arcade in the club with my cousin and sis to play. and omgawd...... the games made us really high . HAHA ... we played this machine which required us to hit the mickey mouses head with the toy hammer and they only provided 1 hammer. so guess wad we did... we used our slippers to hit it LOL!!!!!. hilarious.. thankfully we were the only people there... HEHE.. Xpp....
k la shall sleep now . i have to wake up early to do my dad's day present. or else i'm so doomed for. ( sis ain't helping this time ... how nice. )
chaos!
p.s. i'm still stuck on the father's day message. lawl. T.T
posted by shutupworld 1:38 AM
priorities.
hello world
woke up had lunch went out for badminton trng in school. and gawd. wad a day to begin with. first was that a yr1 claimed tt she needed to go back to old sch for trng cos her old frens said meet up. fine. didn't agree but expected her to go to her sec sch. little did i expect a reply saying tt she told coach about it and even told me see me soon. lawl. nvm. first 1 person late. then subsequently received like 4 msges thereafter the first one. nvm. at least they've had the courtesy to tell me. super nonsense excuse. seriously . gawd.
anyways trng was ok . t shirts arrived ! . X))))))))... all smiles. XD.
chaos!.
p.s. how would you feel if you were me?
posted by shutupworld 11:23 PM
b.f.f outing ! . X))
hello world!
went out with B.F.F rabaia today ! . HAHA!. Xpp... my nonsense fren . X)).... so today we met up then went to eat at pasta mania. played at the whimpsy arcade and we went nuts about tokens and stuff. XDD... we went round every machine checking if people left their tickets there or not and omgawd ! we were so lucky ! . XDDD... so in total we played and collected 190 tickets! . haha .. oo ya ! . we played this basket ball machine and guess wad i did! . I PUT MY HAND AT THE SENSOR!!! and she got a score of 90++ LOL!!! HAHAHAHA!!! ... weweeew! XDD... so we had loadsa snacks along the way. we had ice-cream, pretzels, sweets omgawddd..... XDD... okay . so here's the pics!.
tickets !!!
sweets! X)))
and we forgot to take picture together !!!! T.T . lol !!! ... damn sad. have to wait till then which wld be ( damn long ) ... T.T . haha . anyways takecare girl! . must update me ! XDDD..thanks for today ! X)... enjoyed myself much much too! . XDD...
mum told me that i can take up photography lessons from cc's or smth and i was like... ( i need a professional camera). lawl!.
anyways....
i hardly take a pic of myself but this was random.... XD. ( i looked as if i was drunk)
i seriously hate the smoke from ciggerates. how i wished i could sit by the beach and enjoy the calming sea breeze. i need fresh air. i need to soul search. i need time. i need a new environment.
chaos.
p.s. idon'tevenunderstandmyself. nevertheless you.
posted by shutupworld 9:52 PM
absolute?
hello world !
woke up later than my expected timing. well... sis kinda made me go mad last night for 3 hrs. gawd. the typing of the keyboard and clicking of the mouse gets annoying when u're trying to go to sleep.
so anyways i measured my hse area and designed it. so i'll be trying out on photoshop. X). haha ... after so long lo . Xpp... went out in the evening to watch movie and eat. met belin then went home. the movie was damn good... omgawd... chewed on my finger nails the moment the movie started... pop-ed in pop corns to ease the intensity.... its a must watch ! 'the taking of pelham 123'!!! X))
trng tomorrow. ! X)>. shed fats ! . haha ...
chaos!
p.s. absoluteisanassumption.
posted by shutupworld 9:59 PM
drained.
hello world
gawd. training this morning was suffocating. my throat felt so sore in the morning... went for training did drills running and stuff. felt damn shagged. played doubles most of the time today. was quite fun. X).. bathed then went home. and i did nothing. lol ... watch tv tv and more tv ...lol .
i need more sleep.
chaos.
p.s. wishing below the night sky.
posted by shutupworld 11:07 PM
gawd.
hello world
pressure on me is worst than ever. sometimes i really don't know who to trust. who is real . seriously . anyways. spent my entire day saving files into cds. then quarrelled with my mum over some trival matters. still thinking of what to do with my garden. lol .
trng tomorrow. wake up early.
chaos.
p.s. how i wished.... my future was as clear as the sky.
posted by shutupworld 10:18 PM
musn't.
hello world
went to watch aviva open today. oh i mean yesterday. lol . with hui jun and ella. was quite fun and boring when it was coming to the end of it. so we kinda entertained ourselves. XD..
was just randomly thinking about some stuff. i wonder why do i have doubts about myself when i have already proven myself that things that i didn't expect myself to achieve and actually achieved it. i need some faith seriousy. i need to wake up. wake up from all these thoughts and move on and fight this long battle.
chaos
p.s. i'd just wished that i can make my own decisions, lead my own path and not others controlling what i am and what i do.
posted by shutupworld 12:07 AM
humble pie.
hello world!
gawd!. woke up early cleared com saved stuff then tada ! . com not cleared fully.. so gonna continue tomorrow... one week passed. its sad. X( . holidays passes so quickly. sigh . oh wells... 2 more weeks to go. have yet to meet up with raba'a . XD... i bet she misses me LOL!!! . HAHA ... B.F.F! loadsa stuff to update man .. X))...
had training this evening. was good. used my super heavy racket to play today and i played surprisingly good thou.... lunch was fried rice with soup with dad lol . carbohydrates are the source of strength . XD... did half squats and leg raise after training... not bad actually . XDD... didn't feel any muscle ache or wadsoever. Xpp... hehe ..
had dinner at home. watched tv then came online. just discovered that my phone has this tap function... double tap to mute , double tap again to reject calls. woohoo~~~. X)). sis likes it too !! . hohoho ! . LOL! .
my awesome new phone ! . Xppp
mighty euro
and
handsome prince. XDD
chaos!
p.s. the truth.
posted by shutupworld 11:45 PM
new phone ! yay !
enclosure
hello world
got my new phone ! . 6600 slide in the end. dad said flip phones for nokia isn't their speciality so yupp heeded his advice... felt the pinch when i keyed in using my nets card. ( my ITP MONEY!!! ). mum actually fan hui last min . like wth. so i paid 268 from my own itp money. yes. wth.
so fetched my mum to work. then dad and me went to have lunch. then went to restring his racket and he went to cut his hair. he made me wait for him for 1 hr can. gosh ... dad's hair cut duration is longer than mine... T.T ... anyways. received letter from school. one is an invitation to some scholarship and career fair and another is some free stuff lol ... quite a boring and time wasting day... have yet to clear com! . rawhhh
chaos!
p.s. doing things with ones capability isn't a bad thing afterall. i'd rather go solo.
posted by shutupworld 11:45 PM
HOT!!!!!! crazy weather...
hello world!
gawd i've got this urge to get wallets ! !!!!>.. XDD.. ok pictures later.... haven't been updating .... so yesterday went out to play badminton with ray and shi and ray's cousin at bedok cc. was a fun session as we went for dinner at long john thereafter. saw a lady with a tattoo on her face. omgawd... was quite a big one. we chatted from 5 plus till 8 lol ! . haha ... yep . was pretty funny . we walked out of ljs and we were still talking . HAHA! . ok thereafter, shi accompanied me a while to recce for my long awaited nokia 6600 flip! . XD. and yes ! finally i found a dealer. after so long .... 268 for 2 yr contract.. reasonable. so i'm getting it tomorrow! . hehehe...
today met up with kelly to learn the basics of montages. and oh gawd.. its tough. have to clear com urgently... so gonna revamp my garden! . XDD... lol ! . so yupp.... we had lunch then went library. then i went for trng at about 2plus. XD . trng was good. hot hot hot hot !!!!>... coach treat us to watermelon juices . X))... hehe ... such a hot day.... so kelly was asking me which clothes she shld get on an online website and i saw this purse that she sent me the link which was nice. but i oso have a wallet in mind too ! . dang dang ....
vote people vote... help me please? haha ! .
this ? 25.90 sing?
or....
cost 5 sing
HAHA!!! people vote vote!!
chaos.
p.s. hot hot hot !!!. new phone !! YAY!!!! HEHEHE!.
posted by shutupworld 10:41 PM
start.. 
hello world!
when was your last time sitting on a carousel.? i was inspired by this picture.. i think it'll take me years to be that good. superb skills... ( admires). XD. so anyways had breakfast then had heavy lunch with dad and then rot at home and was lazy to go out thereafter with dad to play badminton in the club. haha so i stayed at home and doodled a little.. Xpp..
a few days ago i mentioned tt i bought dad a pair of sunglasses? .....
tada!
cool ba . XD.
my doodles. Xp. 
retro heels
stripes.
butterfly eye.
chaos
p.s. captured moments.
posted by shutupworld 8:49 PM
yikees!
hello world!
morning !!! . oops i mean afternoon!!!!... i just woke up like 45 mins ago. so ya i'm still in a daze. XD. i haven had my breakfast and i'm feeling refreshed. was talking to tt stupid dumbass on msn. lol . have to rebutt till he has nothing to say. hohoho... Xpp.. just had lunch . haha ...
updates later.
chaos.!
p.s. sometimes i wonder if believing is good enough.
posted by shutupworld 12:15 PM
i had a good laugh .. 
picture of the day...
hello world
woke up then went out with mum without having any breakfast... so we went bugis. went bhg then went to eat at pasta mania then proceeded to singtel. didn't get my phone . AGAIN! . cos it was sold out. how nice.! . X( . great. wait again . dang shit. so proceeded to city hall thereafter bought some things then went home. so got a pair of sunglasses and shorts for dad. shall show pics tmr. Xpp... haha .
so was watching some documentary on penguins a while ago and they were uber cute and elegant. couldn't stop laughing at the way they walked . HAHA!!!!... XPp.. hehe ... mum said i laugh damn scary . Xpp. hehe ...
uber cute penguin chicks!
k la . shall sleep soon.... bro talking nonsense on msn . XD...
chaos!.
p.s. trampledon.
posted by shutupworld 11:03 PM
my own set of plans.
hello world
this morning woke up quite late and it left me with a horrible headache after having greeted with a strong stench of smoke. how nice. did my composite analysis. slacked tv msn ate lunch settle badminton stuff. slack tv msn ate dinner tv again and i'm here now. yupp. that was how my friday went by. boring !. hoping to change my phone tomorrow lol ...
my motivation came from family then friends and now, i stand alone.
chaos
p.s. The biggest fear, challenge, motivator and reason is oneself. ( wingy's quote) . XD.
posted by shutupworld 11:32 PM
ailesha needs a change of thoughts and a new attitude.
hello world.
i need to plan out my holis. i feel like i've got so much things going on shopping, meeting ups, trng, organising , wanting to learn photomontage , etc. gawdd.... i need a plan!!!!... i oso need to clear out my com. make more space and free space. lol ... add ram increase speed more memory. lol .. dang . seriously need to lol...
i just finished one due work. 1 more to go ! . dang .. i'm so behind time and lagging like madness. i need to catch up more sleep and have that vibe back ! .
i'm so sick of being thumbed down by people. i need my own stand i need my own decisions. i need to hear my voice. i can't believe i'm so troubled by the littlest things that is happening around me. probably because i perceived reality. unfortunately, reality is cruel. anything is possible. things happens for a reason and maybe i do not understand any of this. i'm messed up. i need to sort things out. i don't know how to react when to react when to express when to speak when to smile, joke, or ...... i don't know. dang me in the head. i need a wake up call.
i need a break. a break away from all these politics. all the discreteness, all the chionging, all the plastics. omg. I HAD ENOUGH!
now with no one to rant to. i seriously feel worst.
chaos.
p.s. counting...
posted by shutupworld 9:49 PM
freezing!
hello world!
gosh the air con in class today was crazily cold. X(. felt like i had a fever when i went for trng. but i was ok thereafter. did footwork then smashed and played a match. overall trng was quite slack today. but my leg still aches badly.. X(( ... today nick told me about yest after me and kelly left for shopping then its like mdm zainon was looking for us and fortunately he told me she didn't really take it into consideration. i really needed a break. wasn't really feeling well... lol . i'm tired. really tired. i'm glad there's this 3 weeks holis. prolly the only thing tt i do not regret in my life is playing badminton.. i enjoy it . X). despite i give me cramps and aches here and there but i enjoy it alot. X))... frens, laughter, craziness, the best is that we are a team. X).
tomorrow's gonna be a long long day... zzzzz.... hope the studio won't be so cold. Xp .
chaos!
p.s. whatgoesaroundcomesaround.
posted by shutupworld 10:34 PM
old school
hello world
yay ! holis are coming in like 2 days time ! . training outings shopping ~~ woohoo!~~.... X)).... today i ponned the last hr of school to go shopping and makan with auntie kelly . our last min decision . Xpp... saw a wallet tt i really like. haha . shall buy it the next time hohoho. X))))... i bought a pair of chop sticks !!!!!!.. its a yellow colour pencil chop stick...! . hehehe .. then we went to the super old school arcade where it still gives tickets to change for goodies... yupp . we were like just browsing when we saw a machine that was like super proportionate for us........( the kangeroo ball throwing machine) . HAHA!!!! .. we just bent and the balls went in and we only got like 6 tickets. BOOO!!!!!!.... anyways.... we got 50 tokens in total and yupp we got 2 moam and 1 sour power. HAHA ! . so we played till like 8.30 then we headed home. super funny ... bought a new shirt online with my cousin online .. XD. its a threadless tee again! . hohoho... X). oo saw enemy and captain just now at bugis . very coincidental. haha . kkz gtg and sleep now trng tmr ! hohoho... niteyz everyone ! ^^
chaos!
p.s. what goes around comes around.
i want a DSLR! X(
posted by shutupworld 11:53 PM
peaches.
hello world.
i woke up damn early today. saw nigel on my way to school. so yupp. went school settled down started on panel. i think the class was in a frantic. groups rushing to print, do model, etc. gosh the floor was super dirty too.... helped pian to kop shrub . HAHA! . i kope the shrub from the last yr yr 3 model. XDD.. LOL! so submission was at 4pm. passed it up then helped a few grps while they rushed. everyone passed up on time ! . X))
had training thereafter. actually auntie asked me to go along to eat sakae but didn't . next time luh !!!. haha ... so training today was crazy..... did footwork then play 1 doubles and 1 singles. had other things included too... what was worst was that we had to go run at the stadium. slow jog 2 rounds. walk to the 200 m line. then start sprint. 2 x 200m sprint. seriously dieded. thereafter, had to run 100m sprint. first sprint went well. second sprint was like calves gonna cramp and it did. the most unfortunate part was that both legs cramped at the same time. gawd.. horrifically painful. X((... cramped muscles is a nightmare. X(. it healed after having push back both feet after quite some time. lol . T.T
just had dinner a few moments ago. feeling damn sleepy at the same time shagged. finally group project is over and i'm relieved. holidays are around the corner!. shopping sprees! outings with bff, auntie and pian as planned! ^^. trainings during holis . loves!. XD...
chaos.
p.s. prudence intuition.
posted by shutupworld 10:15 PM
