fairy tales
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i'm taking a break from autocad . AGAIN... yep .. i love pixie lott songs ! . hahaahaha ... it think her voice is nice. X) . went running a lil in the morning had mac breakfast... and i realised i'm getting fatter. so i'm going trng tmr . bulging fats ! . rawhhh ....
i wanna be lean and slim but ... i guess its never possible... i pronounce defeat infront of food.. haha ...
i shall just keep fit.. X)
chaos
p.s. the fall
posted by shutupworld 12:40 PM
happy birthday.
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so today is my nephew's 1st bd. went to my cousin's hse to celebrate . XD. so i just got back at like 6 ? and gonna start work after dinner and like hope to finish editing the plans... plus of course drainage and level plan ... contour i've no idea where to start with ... really sick of this shit.... doesn't feel like mine...
oh wells. i'm pretty messed up these few days... plastic smiles is what its happening now.
emo much? i guess so.
chaos.
p.s. crymeout is the new drug.
posted by shutupworld 7:18 PM
i can't control
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i should be rushing like mad now. i should be feeling the adrenaline rush of chionging but sadly no. i don't feel that way. i'm way too tired to be doing anything... i need rest. a good night's sleep. seriously ... i'm stressed up. too stressed to function.. essay to improve again . damn it.
i don't know whats going in my head now... i feel damn messed up inside. seems like so much things are going on... i need a chill pill... i'm so stressed up by the environment. its like the last week and something in me just tells me to just give up but i'm still holding on.
plans, sections, details, sketchup montage so much things to do and i'm really freaking out.
and i decided to stop happy island for now.
i'm scared.
chaos
p.s. sometimes i really wish i could just stop my heart and hurt myself lesser.
posted by shutupworld 10:37 PM
raking my head.
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hohoho .. solo milo in the studio having a war with my design paper. 2000 words. damn ... how i wish my english was better... oh wells..
i'm so broke.. watched toothfairy yesterday... damn funny show its a MUST WATCH!. hahahaha ... i'm only left with 60 cents in my wallet out of 50 bucks for the week... i borrowed money today so yep... X)...
and yes my ear still has the ringing and its still blocked...
my energy level now is 40/100. i'm gonna fall asleep soon. alicia wake up !!!
chaos.
p.s. yea . meeting and meeting.... damn i hate the grad show. school's so budget.
dearheart,pleasestopachingwillyou?
posted by shutupworld 10:23 AM
my brains is reigning me.
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i feel like crap now... brains are really hurting like madness. finished my planting plan... gonna have to do my details or else i'm so doomed.
i feel that i seriously didn't put in much effort for this project at all.. not because i dun want to but i've got no time. X(... damn....
its really killing me...
chaos
p.s. essays, plans, details!! damn I GOT NO TIME!!!. and WHAT!!!! SHE WANTS FUGGIN MODEL!!! FUGGGGGG!!!
posted by shutupworld 2:32 PM
alicia needs to wake up and chiong
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i know i'm super behind time. i know i'm lagging behind . i know i can't catch up .. i know i need to focus BUT.... I CAN'T !!! i've got too much distractions !!!! .... yesterday was the last match for ivp. we got forth overall... we didn't lose so badly to sim too . so yep.
went out just now to get some string to do my necklace. haha ... went ps and bought frenship band string and brown string. and i finished my necklace. X))... the whole thing is made by me... including the pendant. X)))). hohoho . its made out of ceramics. X)..
alrights back to work
jy everyone.
chaos
p.s. my hopes my dreams my future. its all in my decision and a matter of choice. but i really dunno what i want.
posted by shutupworld 11:35 PM
trust
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we won ite today ! . X)) ... didn't really put in much effort. could tell from everybody's faces. haha .. oh wells. can't be so proud luh ... Xpp... so i kinda had a tiff with the bus driver cause he was so unreasonable..
i dunno why but it just still takes me quite a while to trust someone fully. everyday i feel like crap just cause it doesn't feel right. i know i'm not doing the right thing anymore. words can't describe how i'm feeling now.
saw my ex coach, r_s_i today . didn't say hi thou i know he recognises me . oh wells. anyways ... i gtg now...
chaos
p.s. sometimes things just don't always go your way. i need respect. alot of it.
posted by shutupworld 1:17 AM
AHHHHHH!!!! WE WON!!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!
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OMG!!!! WE WON SMU TODAY!! FINALLY!!! . hohoho!!!!> X)))))))).. heheheheehehehe .... i really enjoyed my match... woohoo ... screwed the first, 2nd was crazy. the last was a breeze... but still ... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it has been so long ..... good job everyone!. XDD.... hehehe hohoho ... i'm really going mad... the feeling just rawks .. didn't actually believe tt i could win .. 2nd match was so close la ! . i think everyone went really jittery... the score was about 28-26 for the second match ! . haha .. so cool . 3rd match cause she really ko. so yep .. was easier for me to move her around . X)) . hehe ... after the match they messed up my hair after hugging me . haha ... hilarious. Xpp. i feel so tired now ... continued version for this post cause there was a giant flying cockroach in my house last night. haha ..
AHHHHH!H!!!! ... okayy . i was so happy that i couldn't sleep ... ^^^^ . haha .... haha . haha /. so... WE ARE GOING IN TO THE SEMIS!!!! ... hohohooho... X))))))
omg..... i'm so lazy to do my work... feel so happy even thou its even 1 day after ... i'll never forget yesterday. the streek was so intense. the spectators were really enthu and encouraging. really thank you ...
for those who lost their match yesterday its ok . everything is a process and we shall learn from it and do even better . X)) ..
ite's the match today ... i hurt my leg a lil yest but i'm ok now . X) .
chaos
p.s. so near yet so far.
posted by shutupworld 1:04 AM
PLANS PLANS PLANS PLANS AND MORE PLANS./... damnnn.
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plans is killing my eyes in autocad... i've been damn tired because of this. anyways .. this week has been really packed and not productive at all... i'm not concentrating i don't know why... something just stuck in my head i'm not gonna say it here. competition has 2 more days. project has 3 more weeks and i have to get my plans done by tomorrow or else i wouldn't have time to finish . X( . for the first time i felt so seriously madly crazy about something tt i just emo-ed and then 'quarrelled'. willfulness kills me. i'm as stubborn as a mule. hard to budge.
serious decisions making this week ahead. more plannings to go. i have to focus.
chaos
p.s. i don't deserve all these. good and bad. alicia has to do work!. T.T .... my brains please listen? please.
posted by shutupworld 3:30 PM
we won.yes finally.
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match yesterday the team played well. we won 4-1 good job people! sorry about my match thou . terrible disappointment for me . sigh . anyways ... lets press on for the next 2 schools ! . X)) ...
so this morning . i'm early . i reached school at 7.30am. feeling pretty refreshed now . i slept for 7 hours after so many days of lack of sleep. although i still feel tired but i'm much better today . aim to finish my plans by this week. and profile section?? ask about how to dimension my plans today and do it during the weekends while i finish my planting and material today! XD. jy to me ... going out with mum tmr somemore . haha ..
chaos!.
p.s. my throat is clogging up.
posted by shutupworld 8:07 AM
TOMORROW!!!!
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my last competition and my badminton 'career' ends in this final competition, IVP... i do feel a little sad thou . have been playing badminton for so many years. since pri 1 i guess? so before i even knew it, it has already been a part of me for so long. 1st match would be with nus. it'll be a tough one but who cares we just give it our all, ain't it? X).... jy everyone and sleep early! . XDD
so today sw gave me my belated bd present. haha ... 2 bottles of nail polish ! . hehehehehe ..... love the colour can . X)).. hehe .... after my competition i'll paint all k? XD.
so after trng today... went to bathe at the girls toilet downstairs and to my horror after pushing the door open i saw 2 guys in the toilet smoking. we stunned for a while and i said 'am i in the wrong toilet?' then i check the sign, i was in the correct place. then scuffled hurriedly and said sorry. i said ' nvm what can we do man'. the toilet reaked of smoke so badly tt we had to go another toilet to bathe. on our way out, saw lisa and i shouted to her and coincidentally the 2 guys walked past her. HAHA!. horribly funny. i did it on purpose to shame those guys. pathetic.
alicia will sleep early today... yea rite.
chaos
p.s. humiliation, sarcasm, lesson.
posted by shutupworld 11:46 PM
omgawd
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today started out horrid with a really bad with a massive jam on the road. oh gawd... seriously... went to school consulted teacher and bam i'm good to be with my designs for details. interview today for scholarship was quite jiat lat i guess..? met some really nice people thou. X)...
thereafter there was a series of phone calls that were super duper impromptu that just came in again and again and again . omg.... faints.... i walked and ran from t5 to t19. can u imagine how far is that... it took me 20 mins to walk there... cause i was in heels. fuggin heels yea i know... i can't walk properly for nuts. for a moment i thought my heel broke. lol ! . anyways did work in the night which got me so stressed out that i felt like crying out loud but i couldn't.
i almost got hit by a stupid car which didn't stop when it was actually pedestrian crossing. like fug it... idiot. he didn't even stop can. fug shit old man.
came home. dad asked me about my future again. telling me real estate is not bad a course... i dun like can. real estate is last on my list. i dun to do anything relating to property or estates... seriously...
if i get depression one fine day, i'm not surprised at all....
chaos
p.s. happy girl meets hell on earth.
posted by shutupworld 12:58 AM
feels like crap
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i thought i could take all these. i thought i could handle it. unfortunately, my fuggin machine malfunctioned. ithurtslikeshitcrap.! 3rd day... haha . this is hilarious. details, essay, plans, trngs, competitions,etc.... i hope i can endure for another few more days when lesser things are on my mind. i'm just so fuggin useless.. hoho .
i'm good, i'm fine. i just needed to rant.
chaos
p.s. pit stops are inevitable. i need one. time to reboot and reload.
i shall make myself disappear for one day.nobodycaresanyways.
posted by shutupworld 1:01 PM
right...
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ok so i'm suppose to be doing my work now but i just had lunch so i intended to relax a while before continuing on my stupid planting pallete... damn... hate this.... so i'm gonna print later.... then start with the fuggin detail... like fug ....
so i'm going nus tmr for the open house thingy.... yep....
alrights .... i'm going to continue my work..
chaos !
p.s. hehehehehehehe . work!!! work!!!
posted by shutupworld 12:45 PM
resolutions
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i just realised that i didn't even plan for my yr ahead ! . so here goes....
- to get good grades and chiong for this last lap.
- to get the team together for this last competition.
- to catch up with my frens more often
- to know what i want to do in the future
- to have good health for everybody
- to have confidence
- new wardrobe?? XDD
- to be me. X)
- lose weight
- to be fitter and leaner
- to let go of the past
haha . okay maybe it sounds lame la . XD
so today went orchard with mummy. bought clothes from g2000 and mango. X)... hehe . today she prompted me on qns which i didn't know how to ans thou. anyways... i bought a dress which me and mum can share to wear. haha ... yep. i'm finding leggings or those purple stockings anybody knows where i can get let me know? hehe... ty ! . ^^. so yep. going out with her again another day. ^^ ..
pictures later . prolly . ^^ /
chaos!
p.s. how i wished .
posted by shutupworld 8:27 PM
suddenly?
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hmmm woke up early this morning for a run . for the first time in my life... 4.3km... serious. not kidding... anyways ... i felt so shagged ... went for breakfast at macs and went home. X)... napped a while and was awaken by mum as she wanted to help me do facial. so yep. woke up and she helped me to do while i fell asleep. XD. and here i am now . not following my dad to play badminton instead to slack at home alone. i'm bored but aching all over. finding somebody to talk to but all are busy.. oh wells.... X(...
chaos
p.s. now i understand how u feel cause i'm feeling the same way now.
posted by shutupworld 5:18 PM
