too much to soon.
hello world!
reached school pretty early today . X) . haha . O O before i forget . . . HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! XD . LOL! . hmmm . well. spent the entire day doing project. and i guess we're almost done with it ! . only thing is that i'm not very happy with the end product cos it really can see that its no effort lol. we dun even have a effing plan ! . dang. preparing to get bad grades man. even analysis we didn't even have a complete set can ! . sigh . i wanna rant!.
skipped gems today. almost skipped english class. lol . so lucky i went for the english module. today was about interview. lol . so yupps.
went for the guys trng thereafter. well was all fine la. my footwork really improved lol. can feel that i'm faster. XD. lol . i'm improving!! . yay !! . XD . went for dinner thereafter. hmmm well i hope everything can be cleared lol. its still bugging me. sigh . i'm at a lost at what to do can. to salvage the situation. someone please enlighten me? hmm.
chaos!
p.s. i'm mentally exhausted. i can't think.
posted by shutupworld 11:22 PM
i'm so vulgar.
hello world..
school started well. slacking a bit here and tre then chionging in de later part of de day. lecture was boring as usual. like yep yep lol ! . anyways .. left early and had teabreak lol.
today's match against nyp was quite a close fight thou. ( claps ) . well. although some not very pleasent things happened in between but its ok . wadever happen happened. and its over. so get over it. ( i'm trying to too. lol . ) my match was quite close actually . had like 23-21 and 21-15? ithink? o o o !! . de empire sucked ! . badly man . ! dunno how she count one lo . friggin retarded. simple stuff like this oso dunno how to do. wth . ok i shall not say bad things abt her haha . lol ! . XD. i guess i'll be de one held responsible for de line up. i'm super indecisive . but given the limitations. i guess tts de best i could do. hmmm the worst thing that can happen is when your team mate walks out on you while the rest are fighting. oh wells. the feeling really sucked.
chaos
p.s. iguessi'mhatedforthemosthilarousreasons.
i owe u all an apology . i'm sorry.
posted by shutupworld 10:37 PM
bloody hot.bloody hell ! .
I AM PAPER!!! XD
hello world!!
hadn't been updating man ! . anyways yesterday we won ite. so yupps . happy happy shalala lol ! . lmao . hmmm . well project didn't really go well thou . i'm getting worried. seriously worried. thanks ranting machine once again . X) . seems like i owe u a whole load man ! . XD
today...
had driving lessons in the morning and omgosh ! . bloody hot can! . imagine i was in the car my my entire back was wet ! . dang hate de feeling ! . anyways ... i knocked down the pole like a hell loadsa times. the place as uneven lo ! . slopes and humps. how to park properly u tell me?! . anyways .. had grp discussion thereafter and guess wad nothing was finalised . nothing ! . goddammit. i'm really effing pissed. pissed not because of no work done. its the attitude. like the standard heck care attitude. damn. i dunno wad to do now.
trng was fine.. well i hope i can play as well as today. lol . when i'm super nervous everything just go blank and i just freeze. lol . hmmm played a no. of doubles lol . well was not bad . X) . quite fun actually lol. now my elbow's hurting. hopefully its nothing . lol .
chaos.
p.s. SOS!. dammit. i've no mood to continue. influence. fcktard.
posted by shutupworld 9:08 PM
updates!!!
heys all i'm back! . XD. I'M SO IN LOVE WITH MY BLOG SONG!!! so rhyming can! . XD . shall post the lyrics! . X)) . hmm before i do so i shall update!! . hohoho . XD. anyways . i wasted my entire day again. slacking . sigh . i can't seem to just sit and do my work. i spent my entire afternoon walking around eating and watching tv. lol . no mood to study!!! . rawh . anyways i finally settled down at 6pm was doing my work like finally and mum came home and said children lets go have dinner . great! dang distractions . so we went out to have some western food and came home watched tv until 9pm and now i don't have the mood to do work again . how nice man . oh wells. i'm going to school early tmr to complete my work! . sigh . distractions are everywhere!!!.. T.T . anyways. jia you tmr for the match girls and guys! . i shall give it all i've got.!
The last goodnight - when it all comes down
I know, you know, we know
Im pulling on myself a third time
Its absurd
Get up and go to work
Latley, Medicated
Sleep got an over rated
Four star, Nominated
I'm perforated with confession
Obsession, Submission
Popping prescriptions, in the kitchen
Hello, I'm in here, Just let yourself in
Everything that you want
Well, Its never enough,
When it all comes down
Everthing that you want
Well, Its never enough
When it all comes
Down, down, down
I stutter, I cough, I flutter
This place is in a clutter
Standing ovation in the back
I'm held for ransom feeling stupid
Pathetic, underweight, filled up,
With diuretic bombshell,
Hand grenades,
Make all the same mistakes
This earthquake weather,
Has got me shaken,
Inside, I'm high up and dry
Everything that you want
Well, Its never enough,
When it all comes down
Everthing that you want
Well, Its never enough
When it all comes
Confess to me
Everything thats in between
Confess to me
Everything thats in between
Pornographic, prophylactic,
Reactions so sporadic erotic, exotic When did making love become so Robotic, hypnotic, phychotic,
Three hundred dollars
Buys a three minute serenade
Inside the candy jar
Finding yourself a hobby
Drugs in the hotel lobby
Stereophonic, ironic
This conversations gone
Everything that you want
Well, Its never enough,
When it all comes down
Everything that you want
Well, Its never enough
When it all comes
(Confess to me)
Swaying your hips to the vynal
While your hair is braided
Post dated, agitated, masticated,
(Confess to me)
Aggrivated post cards, throwing darts,
Side kicks, And
super marts break dance, Lap dance,
(When it all comes down)
I just want another chance
rhymes rite? XD
chaos!
p.s. brain brain GET TO WORK dang it! . T.T
posted by shutupworld 10:30 PM
happy deepavali!!
hello world!
its a monday! . and its a holiday! . XD . happy deepavali and holidays to all!. X) . i'm chionging project now. kinda stuck on what to do now. just had my lunch and oh my gosh i ate so much but i'm like ok full lol . XD. oh wells shall update more later! . i wanna get my ear piece!!. XD.
chaos!
p.s. silenceisn'tignorance. its surprising how project had changed me, changed my life, changed people. idon'tlikeit.
posted by shutupworld 1:20 PM
omgosh! project barely half done"?! i'm lost!
hello world
omgosh i'm just done with de level 1 analysis lol . de elevationt thingy i need more time to figure it out. dang .. so much to do so little time. hate this feeling.
anyways went for mac breakfast with family. it was so super long tt we went for macs together. overall was quite ok la. like squabblings here and there. mum and dad bickered like little kids ( sis and i were lost for words!) XD. oh well. thinking back was quite fun actually . XD .
thereafter sent sis for tuition and we went j8. i went to popular to get my stuff while my parents went to ntuc to get the groceries.
came home walked around the house msn-ed played with the dog and just settled down like finally. lol . i can't seem to sit and do my work lol. kinda boring for a day. didn't really talk as usual. i dunno why. my mouth seemed to be locked. hmmm. oh wells.
chaos.
p.s. makemesmile.
posted by shutupworld 9:44 PM
emo-control machine...
hello world
woke up just in time for trng this morning. met rachel as the rest were late and went to school. well trng today was quite ok just except that my right leg really felt kinda pain . hmmm. after trng went home and had lunch. mum asked me how do i feel after losing 2 matches. i told her i felt demoralised. she said then what do u think u must feel? i said i should feel even more determined to win the next few matches. she told me u have to be strong. ( i know that but its kinda hard for me to cope my emotions. i'm loosing control.) . slept my entire afternoon away...
Just had my dinner. dad said some crappy things. He said. . . after doing your resume i found that your acadamic achievements not so impressive leh. like wtf you want me to do at this point?! i'll complete my course i promise. and i find that i'm doing all my best to hang on to achieve better grades. what more do you want me to do?! i think i'm really better off alone. i don't know wad to say. my dad doesn't believe me. why am i hanging on this badly. i hate this feeling. i feel so lost.
yea i'm wierd. ignore me then. thanks.
chaos
p.s.probablythebestthingtodoisleaveinsteadofbelieving.ha ha .
posted by shutupworld 8:10 PM
TGIF!
hello world
this week had been so rough man . tuesday had a match against RP i lost my match but i'm glad we won overall including the guys that had won as well. X) . wednesday was quite a long day as well. had driving lessons went to receive my prize and went for trng. ( for those who did not see me wear skirt too bad ! bahahaha lol . hmmm i think it was 2 yrs since i last wore a skirt ! . X) ) oh wells i would not be wearing it anymore ! . bleh ! . Yesterday ( thurday) was our match against TP and omgawd i really expected us to win but ... hmm oh wells. its ok . wadever's over is over. my match was quite screwed oso . sigh ( so demoralising!)
Anyways this week learnt some stuff . some good some bad ( i don't exactly know if its bad or not thou . hmmm )... well 1 more week to submission for grp project then hohoho .. individual! . ( zombie release! LOL!) i've been so judgemental and getting irritated so easily. Little things like continuous poking on my shoulder and advices during the match may just trigger me. lol . ( omgawd i sound like a timebomb! XD) . so many issues revolving around me. ok shall chill meanwhile.
wells i shall not be a faithful blogger these few days. X) .
elmo's world! random!
chaos!
p.s. i'msorryican'tbeperfect.
update...
just came back from guys trng not long ago. and well i think i'm like so inconsistent lol . dammit cannot cannot alicia must jia you ! . XD . went to eat dinner with them after that then went home. X)). felt so tired. gonna sleep soon. X)
chaos!
p.s. sigh i dunno why i've got this really wierd feeling lol. its just me? hmmm . i've no idea. i'm just really mixed up right now. i'm so friggin tired. can someone just brainwash me? hmmm. lol.
posted by shutupworld 10:41 AM
ithinki'mcrazy.
hello world
today my head was aching the entire day lol. my head was like blank and plus i feel so blur. lol . project was ok . just quite behind time by a lil. XD
competition was ok ... i was quite disappointed with myself lol. but i know i tried my best ba. hmmm. we won in the end . both guys and girls . and i'm pretty happy ! . ^^ . loves. !.
chaos!
p.s. smiles.
posted by shutupworld 11:14 PM
MONDAYYY!!!
hello world!
today went to school late lol. CADP lectures are oh so boring . almost slept again. fang xin was wearing the same shirt as me only her's was blue . X)) . HAHA . did some animation in sketchup. well was quite cool . X) . then spent the rest of the day seeing the guys play cs and me just standing at the side and say ' die die die die DIE! ' lol ! . XD . it was quite self entertaining . X) . group members were not all present moreover some of my team mates didn't bring their stuff so yupp didn't do anything lol. bloody headache spells again. dang hate it. lol .
came home watched my drama ... then continued with the dancing show and now chatting wth babe ! . X) . HAHA . a while ago at about 9.26pm some bloody effing bunch of bastards called my phone and asked if i'm alicia. i said yes may i help u . he said i'm tay . i tot was dave . then i asked tay or dave . he said TAY! . i was like okay may i help u . then he snapped . i m TAY!. so i was like okay wad u want then . and he said i m tay . i paused. i heard background whispers. i said u are and what do u want? he just continued saying he's tay and followed by minor giggles. i hung up thereafter. come on la guys. are u that childish?! u wasted your parent's money and plus your time lol. very fun is it? lol . wake up la ! . dammit.
chaos
p.s. concept concept where are u ?!?!?!
posted by shutupworld 10:03 PM
i dun have the 'i want to do project' mood.
hello world.
today i woke up at 11.30am sat on my study table staring blankly at the butterpaper and nothing's coming in . so i went to have lunch then went back to work again . ( headache spells) . So.... i gave up and went to bedok inter with my mum to buy some stuff. and now i'm back again. i thought of a concept which is really simple but kinda shallow. i'm trying my best to think of another but it just doesn't seem to hit me . its like a huge rock in de middle of my brain. malfuctioned brain damaged freak tard! . dang . this is stupid. yes alicia relax relax. relax somemore la ! . dammit. i really wonder sometimes if i'm listening to the right thing. hmmm .
competition's coming . and i think i'm in the mood ? haha . lol .
anyways special thanks to my ranting machine and auntie. X)) . thanks for always listening and giving me advices . X)) . loves!
JIA YOU TO THOSE WHO ARE HAVING O'S TOMORROW!!! add oil ah bi ! . X))
chaos.
p.s. entangled.
posted by shutupworld 5:42 PM
random! .
hello world
went for trng really early this morning. i tot i played pretty well. X)) . HAHA . hmmm . went for a church wedding and now i'm back home. X) . Well the entire ceremony was a very meaningful one as i was listening to the pastor, i caught one phrase in which many couples do not understand. 'the man get married not because of sex but respect. the lady get married not because of money but love.' was listening for an hr. it was like an educational talk for the newly weds to guide them or rather prepare them for their future. i was inspired thou. its really meaningful and educating. X) . haha. I also met this really cute old couple that is really friendly and nice. X) .
competition's on tues!!! . ahh .( freak out !!) .
anyways . i really hope everyone would recover and excel in de tuesday match ! .X))
take care!!!
chaos!
p.s. isitjustmeorisitanillusion? hmmm
posted by shutupworld 1:42 PM
my eyes feels so heavy...
hello world
i'm sick of all the needlest needings that is bugging me at the back of my head. damn i'm slackening is that good or bad? hmmm. i've no idea as well. i guess for this project i'm kinda writting off. i've no idea why but its like when one tells me to take it easy i will and its to the extreme. i can't control.
there's training and loadsa stuff left undone waiting to be completed tomorrow. i shall sleep now.
good nite everyone! .
chaos!
p.s. how i wish i could have another round of holidays.
posted by shutupworld 11:12 PM
omgosh . i was out the entire day!
hello world.
went out at 8.30 to meet hui shan for breakfast plus return her her uniform. caught up quite alot with her lol . we shall meet again soon! . had a hearty talk with her. X))
proceeded to clementi for my driving lessons. today's lesson was good. X) . haha . went back to school met lisa, rachel, kelly and may siew for lunch. by the time i reached they've finished theirs already . XD . slacked till 3pm then zq and me went for some sports meeting till 4.30 then went for another meeting with the principal at 4.45 . omgosh! . meetings were dammit dang it man. my eyes were so dry! . wanted to just sleep man. zzzzz. lol .
after all the stupid meetings it was already 6++ .T.T . i had this sudden craziness to train lol . so lisa may siew and rachel trained together till 9 ++ ? haha . the first time i'm willing to let go my drama just for training ! . XD. lol . trained till like 9 ++ . i think i played ok today. not exceptionally gd lol . oh wells. its ok . X) .
i have to wake up early tmr . X( .
chaos!.
p.s. i must pwn projects now lol .
posted by shutupworld 11:50 PM
2nd day of sch... screw u projects! .
hello world!
how nice to have project on the 2nd day. 2nd day of a new sem. omgosh my muscles are just moving but mentally i'm still in a daze. integrated project 2 . grp work first then individual. hmmm. well wad can i say! my grp is fantastic man ! . omgosh . 1 mia de other 1 i really have no comments ... omgosh .... luckily got wx . XD . lol .
just thought of a phrase yest at random. . . 'idon'tneedtobeprettytobebeautiful' lol . damn random rite? haha . well i thought it really makes sense. X) .
yay trng and driving tmr ! . X)) .
chaos!
p.s. i hope i can cope with everything.
posted by shutupworld 8:59 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!! X))
hello world !!!
oh man i've been so busy doing my mum's birthday card that i've hardly got the time to blog nor write my diary ! . Anyways today was my mum's birthday!! I made her a card and bought her a necklace. X).
present and card..
the interior of the card which took me approximately 2 hrs before i went to sleep at 2am last night.
Thereafter, we had a cake cutting session in the afternoon... She got herself a cheesecake ! . XD. ok i'm so lazy to type... i shall let the pictures do the talking yo!
birthday mummy!
family photo!
this fat dog craved for more cheesecake while i was taking this pic! . see his desperate look ?? XD
After having the 'cutting cake' usual ritual, we proceeded to the singapore flyer to have our first ride in it. We booked tthe 5.30 tickets and went in. oh my gosh! . so many scans and checks and photo taking before actually queuing or rather going for the ride !. oh wells anyways .. we boarded the capsule and our ride began !!!>......
our capsule cabin!.
our first picture in the cabin!.
sissy!. X) .
me!!! XD.
i was kinda bored so... i took a pic of mum dad sis!
i decided to be funny in this pic....XD..mum dad me.
The model of the new IR at marina bay! . looks real ain't it?
picture of the day!!!. X))
mummy and me !. haha . it was random!. X))
we proceeded to china point for dinner at a restaurant. well i must say the food was really good. fusion menu. omgosh! . damn nice. shall put up pictures later!!. Xp .
chaos!
p.s. probably some things are just not meant to be understood.
posted by shutupworld 11:50 PM
movie outing!!! my dad just won't give me peace. dammit.
hello world
today started out quite a boring day. woke up quite early actually. slacked de entire afternoon then met lisa and rachel to go plaza singapura first. got there and had chippies and rach had ice cream. then met the rest and went to buy movie tickets. there were 12 of us man . me, lisa, rachel, may siew, kelly, joan, hui jun, zhi quan, ron, kamarul, bryan and xing hua. we took de entire row man ! . HAHA . wanna see how long de tickets was...? HEHE. longest ticket rows ever !!!! . XD .
tada!!!! crap i kinda moved thou lol . ! .
anyways we watched eagle eye. the show was nice overall thrilling and kinda scary thou . consistent movie actually too consistent till i was practically falling asleep thou . Xpp. haha . anyways it was kinda funny while we were waiting for the show to start so much passing of food plus noise. ! :X . haha lol .
after the movie we went to lao pa sa to eat. seriously and honestly wasn't in a very gd mood alrdy thanks to my dad. sometimes i just wished he understands me. cos i dun tink he does. neither does he trust me. at least mum's reasonable. dammit. i just feel like shouting, screaming. i don't know. next time i shall just go back myself. i know he cares for me but sometimes i just wanna be independant. i just wanna mix around with my friends. its just so unfair. respect. i no longer understand.
chaos.
p.s. u won't understand.
posted by shutupworld 11:50 PM
woohoo~~ happy birthday lao lao !!! . X))
hello world
finally woke up and reached de station on time lol!!! . haha . anyways got a lift from dad to the station with mum as well. she was late for her appointment with de doc so she went off first . met lisa and rachel and gossiped a bit .:X . haha . hmmm trng was ok i guess. very slacked actually. hmmm anyways .. we bought donuts for her !! . haha . i brought de relightable candles and we bought some birthday candles too. X)) . so yupps. lisa and me kinda put whipped cream on laolao's face . Xpp . haha . a bit only la . haha . ( we specially brought face wash for her lol ! XD) . anyways ... thereafter .. we camwhored a whole lot man ! . jumpshots and like lao lao eating or rather savouring her donuts. HAHA . X)) . we went to fc4 to have our lunch and headed home . X) . tmr going out to have movie with them. after tmr i think i'll be broke officially lol . T.T . oh wells. i'll be getting advance pocket money from mummy . lol . hopefully she doesn't scold me . X( .
got home and finally finished up mummy's bd card! . X)) . the most complicating and required alot of workmanship card.! and its done mostly by yours truely . ! lol! . haha .
PICTURES!!!! enjoy~. X)
getting ready.....
tada! de jump back shot ! HAHA. lol!
superwomanys.!! X)) .
last shot!!! blurred!!!
MUMMY'S BD CARD!!! X))
front
back
top view! . X))
it was made from scratch okayy. i used de back card board of my butterpaper pad, buttons, string, paper, cloth, and glue. lol . double sided tape as well lol.! this took me 2 days lol . XD.
chaos!
p.s. oh man this post has the most pictures!!! XD
posted by shutupworld 9:24 PM
B.F.F outing ! X))
hello world!
went to tm to buy mum's bd present and also meet up with raba'a!! . X)) . oh man . it has been ages since i met up wid her man . HAHA . we talked about practically loadsa stuff . crapped alot too can ! . HAHA . thanks girl for helping me out with my mum's present plus the ice cream . XD . Xpp . we shall hang out again really soon! . and it'll be my treat !! ^^ . Xpp . do take care girl! . X))
there's training tmr !! yay!!! . haha. shed fats ! . today my meal for de entire day had chicken chicken and more chicken . ( scary ! ) . i had like 2 drumsticks 1 thigh and 2 drumlets lol! . okok just de sound of it is scary enuf.
chaos!
p.s. fats fats fats!!! . rawhh ....
posted by shutupworld 11:08 PM
wisdom.
hello world
ok woke up late for my cartoon totally missed de entire show lol. went out to j8 with parenst after sending my sis for tuition. X). had teabreak at chomp chomp . then now i'm like racking my brains for gems man . lol . XD . i'm blardy fickle. yupps blardy. lol ! . XD . mum's watching korean drama. she's obssessed with ' stairway to heaven' haha. we watched it together and now she's watching it all over again .
omgosh kwon sung woo is super HAWTT!!!! HAHA . LOL!. woo see his 6 pacs . woah seh ... i'll faint man ! . XD . lol. so far he's de only korean guy which looks oh so super uper good in suits and nothing else man . ! . he only suit westerns suits lol! . tee shirts and other clothes dun suit him at all ! . XD.
chaos!
p.s. i used to love myself for who i am . but now...
i'm hating myself for who others think that i'm not.
posted by shutupworld 10:32 PM
wth ? nah wtf! .
hello world.
i shall cut short my entry for yest and today. went for driving lessons yest. and dang i can do a proper parking !! . X)) . haha . anyways something got me quite pissed off in the night after learning about something . and great how nice not respected again. oh wells nvm . still dun understand the situation. lol . goddammit. i shall just chill and just let myself know tt she doesn't know de proper procedure ba. we're in a team anyways. we shall stick together and not let this kinda small stuff affect us . X) . ok self consolling .
chaos!.
p.s. i need freezer! . LOL! .
posted by shutupworld 4:48 PM
The girl with few words.... 
hello world
went outwith dla clique today..went for lunch then went to watch painted skin. not bad but damn draggy. hua bin was like practically de entertainer in de cinema can .! XD. anyways... went to emi's hse to look for her as she didn't join us. so we celebrated allan's and her bd with a cake we bought. X) .
there's trng tmr !!. how i love trngs yo ! . X)) .
great!!! no courts! who's de friggin bastard who booked the courts from 8am till 10pm u tell me ?!!?!?! dang it.
i think i just have to remain silent at all times. didn't feel like talking. probably one day i mite become mute. hur hur . ok this is lame. oh wells . anyways ... i seriously feel so wierd having nothing to talk about. i think even being at home all i do is watch tv or msn or msg. hardly talk to anyone except my dog and rabbit thou. hmmm.
i dun wanna go to sch !!!. XD.
chaos!
p.s. gems is such a big headache!. dang! .
mind your thoughts they become words,
mind your words they become habits,
mind your habits they become character,
mind your character they become personality
posted by shutupworld 8:58 PM
holidays.... ending ... T.T .
hello world
today woke up quite late watched tv then went to cut my hair with mum. went for lunch .. saw some ex-bdsians. hmm . anyways ... ate mee pok went home slept de entire afternoon and yupps dinner with my beloved teevveewee . XD. chatting with lisa and babe... and its like 1.30am thurday now. i'm still not tired. Xp. meeting ceci tmr somemore. lol . okok shall be a gd girl and slp soon . Xp .
chaos!
ps. i had a really wierd dream yesterday.
posted by shutupworld 11:30 PM
