my own wishful thinking
hello world
all my life... i was being looked down upon, despised, compared, insulted, accused of things that i didn't do... etc. i am glad i took it the right way and turned these into motivation to study hard and train hard.
i am glad to be where i am now. but what i lack now is confidence. my only motivation is my closer friends and family. i know i wanna do well. but having so many stumbling blocks in my life made me even more indecisive. i know i can do this. i don't wanna be looked down anymore.
i proved my ability. i proved that mental strengths can bring wonders. i believe anyone out there can be what they wanna be with hard work and of course luck. X).
prolly i'll be out of town by this year...
chaos.
p.s. i'm getting tired by all the knick knacks.
posted by shutupworld 2:17 AM
u're in my prayers.
hello world
i haven't been faithful to my blog recently.
so much things happened. i got a job in finance a temp job, decided to study first.. nus or overseas i've no idea., scholarship can jolly well say bye bye, catch up with my old frens, graduating in 1 mths time..... and something else happened.
i hope its all gonna be ok. its all going to be fine. please tell me there's nothing wrong. tell me its just nothing. please. . . i don't wanna lose. i need strength. i know i have it.
please be strong, i'll give u strength. i'm praying every moment.please tell me its ok.
chaos.
p.s. i dun like to lose the things i love.
posted by shutupworld 11:12 PM
wad a day
hello world
for starters.... i screwed up badly.. X((... and i'm feeling damn emo today.
went out with grace, hui lee, bee chin and xiu wen to have lunch at orchard and yes i waited for damn long cos i was there damn early . XD. enjoyed my time with them. loads of laughter, felt better.
and i'm happy that i didn't go home alone today either. i'm glad. X)
really appreciate your company ! . X)...
i flopped my interview today. so what is next? ..
chaos
p.s. i wanna get a wallet. X((..
posted by shutupworld 11:30 PM
2 months
hello world
the past 2 days have been a blast.! had fun with juniors with a slumber, badminton chalet with taboo went hilariously crazy, badminton gone so wrong today, etc....
so many things have had happened these few weeks.... some good some bad... signed up for scholarship and got into the 2nd round of interviews this coming Thursday. wish me luck! . XD.
slept at 7am this morning and we all woke up at about 4pm. had lunch and breakfast at 4.30pm... serious madness... system gone wrong. XDD. oh wells. life in singapore... expect much?
i'm feeling kinda tired from all the chasing and following so much so that i really needed a break from the hectic lifestyle. i'm someone who needs peace, average pace, productivity and fun. a balance.
i don't know where to start. i'm starting to lose faith in practically everything.
chaos.
p.s. i need some time. leave me alone.
posted by shutupworld 1:36 AM
abrupt
hello world
i got awoken by a phone call... disturbing my sleep. how nice. just because of friggin filthy money...
life is seriously so complex affecting mine.
i have no idea how to handle this.
i've no idea what i want but i know i need some concrete and true and real advices. not what is beneficial for me. i need help. but i dun know how to help myself.. and all i can do is leave myself on lurch and yet no one's coming to my rescue.
i believe after every storm there is bound to be a rainbow. but when will that storm come in this drought? will i ever get to see a rainbow?
future is so deceiving. oh so plastic. fugtard.
chaos
p.s. grumpy.
posted by shutupworld 11:32 AM
