ZOMG!!
hello world.
had like super heavy breakfast in the morning then i had mac at 10am again . lol . lecture was damn boring as usual. ok i'm suay cos he always calls my name . sigh . oh well. hmmm . today i did quite alot of my project. managed to finish like loads of it. lol . gonna draw the sketches later . XPp . HAHA . hopefully can colour later? hmm . ya . hopefully . Xp . oh well. i must finish it no matter wad man. Xp . i'm so gonna catch up all my slp on sunday. seriously i'm exhausted. worst than tired now. i guess everybody is ? XD. my phone died on me today...
ok thinking so much today . some funny, some sad, and some really cute ones like how we actually believed that shaking the last finger of your hand can actually control ur pee? HAHA . ok this was damn dumb. but oh well we were naive enough to believe. X). i miss those carefree moments when you can be worry free and run all around like a kid screaming and be like stress free and most importantly being yourself. sometimes thinking back i regret so many things that i've done and decisions i have made. i am what i am today and i have chosen to be what i am. but sometimes i feel that i'm so weak. confidence plays a huge role. pride as well. these two things have alrdy been taken away from me. i know i should not be influenced by what others say but sometimes its just hard. especially when it comes from your parents. when they tell you things like you can't la. something not so positive; not pleasing to the one who's listening. especially when it concerns your interest. what would you feel when someone who started you with this interest telling you now to give it up cos it has no future? won't you feel betrayed? it seriously hurt me deeply. probably this is why i've already lost my determination and perseverance in this sport cum interest of mine. This had probably been in most sucessful thng i've done in my life so far and what did you tell me? quit? this is crap.
i wanna regain what i've lost. probably it may take weeks months or even years of getting back my enthusiasm but i'll try no matter what.
chaos
gonna do project soon.
p.s. i'm like a person in a cave with no torch.
posted by shutupworld 8:55 PM
